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inoculatedGreif
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I realy hate people..
#5590798 - 05/04/06 05:22 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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At first I didnt think this was a problem, but now im starting to worry. every day I usually wake up, my first thought is how crappy my life is going right now. then I get up and shower and it hits me I realy hate people, its almost to the point were its with a passion. I use to coincide with them, everybodys in the same boat, then it got to were People and the stupid stuff they do piss me off. u know, people who pull out in front of you and drive slow. now its getting to were ill wake up and have anger twards people. ive had major mood swings, and a bad attitude twards family and strangers. I cant stand them, for issue purposes i wont go into detail, but certain races. if I see some one of a race I dont like ill literally cuse em out in my mind and analize them how there not suppose to be here and how there a waste of the american time. Every little thing people do, stupid decisions and bad ideas, political stuff, issues on the news,,home issues. even my own family is starting to piss me off. I use to think its cause I havnt had money for bud, but im past the point of soberness and having no pot. usually ill quite smoking and a week later ill be fine. but its ben about 3 weeks and its getting worse.Ive ben doughting the point of liveing, not only based on theories of what is after death, but because this world is past fucked up, and past being fixed. I dont know maybe im just over reacting, ill I know is im getting tired of people, seeing them hearing them, fucking talking to them. ive cut my self off from most puplic places I go, im starting to turn into a hermit. I get depressed some days, and then say im going to do better, and then I think of people and their ways and I get stuck back in a hole. si there somthing wrong with me? each day all I have to look forward in my life is growing mushies. thats all. and when I dont have the stuff to grow them, I get extremly moody and pissed off...
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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it happens to the best of us 
keep your hatred inside, try not to act on it
requite injury with kindness
Sew the seeds of virtue in the world around you
and the perfume from its flowers will lift your spirits.
The more positive energy you send out, the better your circumstances will be
The better your circumstances are, the more your hatred will wither and die
Sometimes it appears as though good deeds go unrewarded.
But this is just a test of faith.
Endure the test of faith
and your faith will be rewarded one hundred fold
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JacquesCousteau
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*prays for paragraphs*
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inoculatedGreif
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lol, sorry bout that. I didnt even think about making them paragraphs. i
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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eligal
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people do suck
 me included
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: eligal]
#5590921 - 05/04/06 06:01 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I cant give much advice about hating people cause i often feel the same way, although its getting better. But what helps me with the anger is once in a while i like to absolutely lose the plot, i will snap and just start smashing mugs, fucken shit around the room, jumping on shit. haha! I realise it sounds weird but it feels great afterwards! i feel less moody and snappy with people. If you let that shit build up, you'll become a nasty, bitter individual
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: beltane]
#5591061 - 05/04/06 06:46 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Yep, I think thats whats happening. Im 19, but all through middle school and high school when people talked shit and all that I just ignored it because their just words right? now when I hear people tallking shit I get realy pissed off and wana go off on them. I find myself grinding my teeth all day trying not to be a dick to my family and freinds and stuff. I guess meditation even if its violent meditation is the way to go or somthing.
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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inoculatedGreif
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and what gets me the most is how fucked up the world is, and its only getting worse and worse. I guess thats life for ya.
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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I have taken a LOT of shit in this lifetime. Believe me, I could go on for pages upon pages about how people have screwed me over.
But still, I choose to love people, and help them whenever I can.
And I have never been happier or more fulfilled.
Bullets bounce off of me.
Even if one managed to kill me, I am confident that though my body would die, my soul would abide forever. I do not believe this. I KNOW this.
"Strike me down, and I will become more powerful than you can possibly imagine."
These are not idle words!
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Fucknuckle
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I don't know maybe I am just an asshole sometimes and this may be one of them times..................
What the fuck ?
You sit around all day and get stoned unless of course you have no cash but, I am quite sure with cash you are smoking. You do nothing but grow shrooms again unless you have no cash. You think certain races of peoples should just walk of the face of the planet and die or something nasty and hateful. You decided to just have a bad day EVERYDAY.
Sounds to me like your a kid living at home with no job. You are a waste case with troubles getting drugs. You are really a nasty little man............etc............Your only happy high or getting high or finding ways to get high or growing your high. Your a classic drug addict.............nice. How does that sound ? Bad Hun ?
Well dude, that is your life as you put it but, from the mouth of another person..........don't like it ? I don't and neither should you.
Now here is a ADULT way of looking at things................
Life is a mix of what we want and what we get. When we are unhappy with things we have choices...............We do not half to simply accept things the way they are. We do not have to allow the bad in our life to push us around. MOST IMPORTANTLY.........We must not allow things so outside our lives, as to say they are on the other side of the planet, to master our attitude.
What goes into our mind comes from our mouths.......Say what you feel and that is what you become.
This is simple humanity 101....................
What can you do about your predicament ?
I SUGGEST......throw away all your drug shit. Get a job or something. Then spend your time doing things for other people. Get your mom some roses, help your dad with his yard, get your sister a new hair dryer, go give your time to the local Salvation Army. Do something positive...........
I am not really sure I can feel sorry for you...........Grow up.
Your life is your life..........Control is at your finger tips. All that shit you said in your post is just that SHIT. You have made some long list of excuses to do nothing........a list of excuses to allow you to have no life. With all those excuses why should you care about anything.....Fuck for that matter when you hate everything and everybody and the entire world............You will never have to take part in it. Shit you can just stay stoned forever.........
Until mommy throws your as out of the house.
The Mods may RIP on me for this post...........It's worth it but only if I can get you pissed enough to see my point.
The point is this..............Love yourself enough to love life.
AS much effort you are putting into growing shrooms you can put into good deeds in your life. The fact you posted tells me that you really want to feel good about life, yourself and those around you. There is good all around you. The world is not a Vampire. The world is your ball of clay. Mold it into a beautiful thing.......Not a ball of shit.
Do the good in life and you will feel good. Feel bad and you will do the bad in life. The choice is yours..........choose.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: Fucknuckle]
#5591244 - 05/04/06 07:35 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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..I dont live with my at home im with a roomie, I lost my job and am having a crap time finding another. you say your life is what you make it, how can I enjoy my life when nobodys leting me enjoy it? I did good for my self, moved out got a job and then bam. its crap, work your ass off for people who dont care who you are, even my family. my sis, bro, dad, mom. theyve ben working their asses off for years, and thell be doing it way past retirement age. its a circle, I can help people out and be chrpy stop smoking pot, and quite growing mushrooms, but thats not going to help me. Ive helped my bro out with a shit load of stuff, and im proud of it because hes my bro. but thats it, nobodys done crap for me but my family. Ive chosen what I want to do in life, but there again there just dreams.no matter how hard I try I cant get ahead. all I have time for is work, and do some shrooms on weakends to relax, maybe smoke a bowle. I have a ball of clay and I form it, but the more crap and people I deal with it turns it in to crap. maybe your right, but how would I go about doing it? I have no money, and dont have a good enough job to get money to do stuff. like I said its a circle, you work, paybills work more. it be all right if there wasnt people being ass wholes, and acting stupid 24/7, but they do. maybe im just venting,but the modern worlds depressed me. I can go out tommorrow and do better, but what then. I still get treated like shit, and im supose to love and help the people? hell no. if this is what being an "adult" is all about than ill pass.
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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Fucknuckle
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Quote:
inoculatedGreif said: ..I dont live with my at home im with a roomie, I lost my job and am having a crap time finding another. you say your life is what you make it, how can I enjoy my life when nobodys leting me enjoy it? I did good for my self, moved out got a job and then bam. its crap, work your ass off for people who dont care who you are, even my family. my sis, bro, dad, mom. theyve ben working their asses off for years, and thell be doing it way past retirement age. its a circle, I can help people out and be chrpy stop smoking pot, and quite growing mushrooms, but thats not going to help me. Ive helped my bro out with a shit load of stuff, and im proud of it because hes my bro. but thats it, nobodys done crap for me but my family. Ive chosen what I want to do in life, but there again there just dreams.no matter how hard I try I cant get ahead. all I have time for is work, and do some shrooms on weakends to relax, maybe smoke a bowle. I have a ball of clay and I form it, but the more crap and people I deal with it turns it in to crap. maybe your right, but how would I go about doing it? I have no money, and dont have a good enough job to get money to do stuff. like I said its a circle, you work, paybills work more. it be all right if there wasnt people being ass wholes, and acting stupid 24/7, but they do. maybe im just venting,but the modern worlds depressed me. I can go out tommorrow and do better, but what then. I still get treated like shit, and im supose to love and help the people? hell no. if this is what being an "adult" is all about than ill pass.
READ YOUR POST SILLY................You keep saying over and over and over and over what you are and what you feel, how much your life sucks, you can't win, you will not make it. You keep saying your life sucks.....THAT IS YOUR ONLY PROBLEM.
Your treating yourself like a ASSHOLE Stop it 
Why come in here and ask for help and then take sound advice and trash it. Even if the right answer was given to you on a gold plate and even of all the work was done for you. you would still give it all away or throw it into the trash. Life is the biggest bar of gold and you just want to take a shit on it. Nice job you should at least get a reward 
Look dude...take sometime and THINK about the things you say before you speak. Then after really think about what I said then re-post. I really can't believe a person can be so negitive as to just quit life. To just say fuck it all..................Com'on wake up from your nightmare now and stop being an asshole to you.
Would you let some stranger tell you this " Hey fucker, your no good, you life will suck forever, why not fucking hate yourself and everybody else, fuck it asshole you might as well hide in the closet you piece of shit "
Well would you ?................but you say it ?
-------------------- What it is, is what it is my Brother. It is as it is, so suffer thru it.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: Fucknuckle]
#5591874 - 05/04/06 09:39 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I agree with alot of the things said in these post about your problem. I used to be the exact same way even going to the point that I fell asleep every night thinking of how to hurt those who piss me off( thank god I dont anymore). You cant change others just yourself and just a little bit of advice if I may. The world owes you nothing, you make it what it is in relation to you. I know that the world is messed up and seems to be getting worse by the minute, what are you doing to make it better but sit and complain. You must just except that it is what it is and can only change what you can(I mean you) than try and change other things but start where you can(with you). I am not triing to mean just saying how I see it
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: kilroy]
#5592516 - 05/05/06 01:24 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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When you meditate, you don't let your thoughts or emotions get to you. There is no such thing as angry meditation - that's called brooding. And it seems like that's what you do quite often.
I suggest getting to the root of the problem. Ask why. Why do I think that? What is the purpose? How does that deal with the here and now? I'm sure you'll find that you just have lots of emotions to deal with and you need to find a way to be happy for yourself so that you can be happy for others, too.
I suggest getting some hobbies and planning some things that will help you find the joy in your life.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: The_Hobbit]
#5592941 - 05/05/06 04:51 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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sounds like you have some serious suppressed feelings, mostly hostility.
not sure about advice, but it doesnt sound healthy at all. being pissed off all the time won't even affect other people, just you.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: kotik]
#5597090 - 05/06/06 07:22 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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It's easy to blame others for our own mistakes, although thats just an excuse to make us feel better. Sometimes when I'm down it's better to blame other people, its human nature.
Don't blame life for your bad choices/situation, if you have a shitty job, get some real qualifications and work for it. Life isn't easy, no one is handed satisfaction on a plate. Take pride in what you do and don't blame others for what you lack.
Make some goals in life, give yourself a direction, don't take envy on others and think positive rather than negative, you'll soon notice a difference.
People are shit, get over it.
I'm with Fucknuckle, Life is what you make of it, Don't make a crock of shit.
Have faith in life.
-------------------- Ecstacy got me standing next to you Getting sentimental as fuck spillin' guts to you We just met But I think I'm in love with you But you're on it too So you tell me you love me too Wake up in the morning like "yo, what the fuck we do?"
Edited by Mushie_Man (05/06/06 07:48 AM)
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: Mushie_Man]
#5609365 - 05/09/06 04:03 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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Humans are scum. Save your money for a while. Buy an automatic rifle (M4A1 did the trick at Columbine) and a couple of duffel bags of ammo and pipe-bombs (or real frags if you can get a hold on em). Go into town, set up a base, (stores work great) load it, lock it, and impose your will on the human race. Shoot for the face.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: StandsAlone]
#5609813 - 05/09/06 06:43 PM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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I dont blame others for my problems, I know I fucked up.I messed around too much in school and got kicked out, so from there I droped out. all the freinds I thought were real freinds, turned out to be just smoke buddys who could care less about me. so here I am. jobless and mad at the world. But im mostly mad at how man has dominated the world, turned it into their own personal playground. but its only a handfull of man, that want to controll everything(governmet). you might think im weird or need therapy, but im realy starting to dout reality. Ill zone out and everything around seems...fake almost. its hard to explain. my guess is the brain is so complex how do we know that are brains are just making all this up? Im not sure how to explain it but I need to look more into it. ill go into zones and have to pull my self out.I dont know if its an out of body experiance or what. but to fuckknucles, I talked to a freind and hes trying to get me hired on with him, so I am doing a little better. does this happen to anybody else? its almost like every thing, every physical object and aspect is... drifting away, almost like theres somthing else, but its clouded by what we so call..reality. I dunno. sorry to bother you guys about my problems, i didnt mean for it to seem like im bitching. and when I tried to explain my self fucknucles, I was typing so much I got stuck in a loop..lol. anyways,im going to try and figure this reality thing out, because I do not understand it. my body goes relaxed and when I look around it seems....I dont,again fake. il update later.
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
Edited by inoculatedGreif (05/09/06 06:45 PM)
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You don't have control over the world around you so just accept it and do what you want and need. Your moral structure builds a foundation for confidence and motivation.
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Re: I realy hate people.. [Re: The_Hobbit]
#5611318 - 05/10/06 01:13 AM (17 years, 8 months ago) |
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You gotta think what you like in life, what's your passion, what is YOUR meaning of life. Who cares what people think. Do what you want, who gives a shit about what someone thinks.
It's your life, not there life, I stay away from people I don't know and don't bother them. Unless they bother me, I also don't take shit from anyone in real life. If they crossed my path and do something I don't like I'd just slap them with my dick.
But yeah, most of the human population is a bunch of brain damaged lab rats that are like roaches & disgusting. Oh well, I can't change them, I let them stay that way....It's good when no one makes cash and I make it easy..........good for them, they work all day in a store, and I only work 5 hours a day maybe then chill all day....so yeah do what you want but find a good way to make cash rather then work behind a desk for someone. Start thinking for yourself, once you do you will realize it's easy to make cash, and work for YOURSELF.
as for buying Marijuana try growing it in the woods, forget wasting money making someone else rich.
Life will only get better once you find what you like in life, have passion and don't just sit around thinking about it.........do it
That's life for ya.....hope life works for you...........it's not a program but you can program certain parts......with good outcomes...
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