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OfflineDreamer987
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Friend is dead
    #3741857 - 02/06/05 08:07 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

My homebody Dereck from back in the day.
He was my best friend in 4th grade. We lived way out in the country, and road the bus together. We used to throw stuff at cars, chase cows,and burn stuff for fun.
Than he moved away for a few years.
Came back in 6th grade. We had alot of good memories together. I remember going out into a hay/ or wheat field, and we would play out there on long summer days. Nothing around, just sunlight, and golden fields.

The last couple of years he was around, we had a falling out somehow. I don't know exactly what happened, but i could tell i had done something really bad that he couldn't forgive. I don't remember what it was. I did alot of fucked up shit back than. Nothing to him tho... i just don't know. Every time i saw him he would look at me contemptuously.

anyway he moved to Oklahoma or something. Got his own place, a kid.
Recently i was thinking about how i wanted to talk to him. To ask him what happened to our friendship. What i had done.
And last night i learned that he died in a car crash. The fucked up part was that my friend told me about it first the day before. It took me awhile to believe him because he's always bullshitting about shit like that. Than when i began to believe it he said "just fucking with you"
Only the next day did i find out that, no Dereck really was dead.

This is the first time a friend has died. Last night, when i learned about it i was really fucked up on beer, klonipans, and xanax.
I don't know how to feel right now. I'm not sad... just contemplative.
Is there something wrong with me?


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OfflineRandolph_Carter
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Re: Friend is dead [Re: Dreamer987]
    #3741886 - 02/06/05 08:13 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

No. If i had to say, you're in shock. And to be honest it sounds like you had him relegated to memory. Sometimes it doesn't hurt quite so badly to lose someone you thought of as in your past.
Losing people sucks. But at least you still have the memories.


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InvisibleMOTH
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Re: Friend is dead [Re: Dreamer987]
    #3741897 - 02/06/05 08:15 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

Honey, I am *so* sorry for your loss.  It doesn't sound like there is anything wrong with you.  It sounds like you might be in the shock stage of grief.  I wasn't sad either when my friend died recently.  Just remember that it's okay to feel any way you want right now.  :heart:


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Offlinezahudulallah
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Re: Friend is dead [Re: Dreamer987]
    #3741920 - 02/06/05 08:20 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

Shock is completely expected. In high school a friend of mine lost his mother. When I gave him my sympathies, he told me it wasn't a big deal. A week later he called me in tears.


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OfflineDreamer987
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Re: Friend is dead [Re: MOTH]
    #3742035 - 02/06/05 08:46 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

Everybody can save your condolences, because i'm pretty sure that Dereck is still alive.
My friend Mike thinks its funny to play around like that, and is gonna think its real funny when i kick his fucking teeth in.


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Offlinewrestler_az
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Re: Friend is dead [Re: Dreamer987]
    #3742115 - 02/06/05 09:07 PM (11 years, 10 months ago)

my grandmother and cousin died a month apart from each other over a year and a half ago. im still in shock.


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InvisibleSociety
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[mod edit] [Re: Dreamer987]
    #3744348 - 02/07/05 08:03 AM (11 years, 10 months ago)

It's great to hear that your friend, Dereck, is still alive, [edit by concrete: i'm sorry but i had to delete that last part, only constructive posting please.]


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InvisibleSociety
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Re: [mod edit] [Re: Society]
    #3746445 - 02/07/05 06:32 PM (11 years, 9 months ago)

I apologize for posting something non-constructive. 

I express strong dislike of a character such as Mike's.  I can relate because I have a "friend" who seems to contain the same type of nonhumorous compulsive lying/kidding.  He'll tell large amounts of the most ridiculous lies for either attention or to enjoy someone else's painful misconception, yet he claims to be one of my "best friends".  He's gone out of his way to hurtfully lie to me sometimes and then even farther out of his way to tarnish my reputation by showing me to be the weak, mistrusting liar. :frown:

I hope you can deal with Mike because he obviously told a horrible lie.


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