circastes said:

Striving is stupid greedy bullshit, including striving to 'know'.

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Not striving is stupid greedy bullshit, including not striving to 'know'.

See what I did there?



Seriously, it seems as though I am completely losing my ability to do things I don't want to do.   because I can't come up with a compelling reason to do so.

This is direct opposition to most people's ideas of what it means to be a good human.  Suffer through it, man up, knuckle down, etc. 

Just read the words of those catch phrases!  Everything I want nothing to do with.  That shit's hilarious, I just noticed that.

Cups said:

...an increased tendency to be all



I see a lot of people around me who have these roles they've developed for their characters to play and they will do anything it seems, no matter how absurd to continue living the "dream". (pun intended)

I had a day on Monday that was in most respects...awful.  One of those days where everything goes wrong and you can't wait for it to be over.

What was interesting IMO was that in the past I would have viewed the situation as a mountain to climb, a challenge to be over come.  Lies told to make the unpalatable a little easier to swallow.

In this case however, I was amazed at how quickly I was completely overcome by the absurdity of the situation...even getting to where I could no longer make related decisions.

It was the part of the movie where the guy just gets up and walks out of the board meeting mid-presentation never to return.

Weird man.

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Cups said:

circastes said:

Striving is stupid greedy bullshit, including striving to 'know'.

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Not striving is stupid greedy bullshit, including not striving to 'know'.

See what I did there?



Seriously, it seems as though I am completely losing my ability to do things I don't want to do.   because I can't come up with a compelling reason to do so.

This is direct opposition to most people's ideas of what it means to be a good human.  Suffer through it, man up, knuckle down, etc. 

Just read the words of those catch phrases!  Everything I want nothing to do with.  That shit's hilarious, I just noticed that.

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You kinda have to to some extent... to fully make your way out you need a decent amount of money. I want to do all the things you said to try and buy out but I don't have that kind of motivation in any way and I don't know if I ever will. Back to churning out unimaginative overcooked dishes and working splits I go.

The Chronic said:

Its good to stop using a mental philosophy as a form of escapism

Its good to stop trying to escape full stop, because then you are free where you are

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iThink said:

I was on track to go to an ivy league school. Then i started questioning all of the shields society handed me and i got really depressed and said fuck it. That's when the drug use kicked in.

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This is what I am talking about.  Remove the fact that your Dad's loaded away from the equation and most people could give you a laundry list of reasons why this is a bad move.  I agree that having a solid career and things would generally make life easier for you, but I can't be sure that it would make it better for you.

It's funny, you remind me of a guy I went to school with.  I'm smart, but never really found school interesting (except literature) but this guy applied himself, took the AP classes etc.  I was skipping and getting wasted.  Sue me.

Anyway, he went off to UVA which isn't Yale but it's pretty nice...and then a year later I ran into him sitting on a curb smoking a cigarette.  He apparently got a few semesters in and for whatever reason dropped out and got a job delivering pizza.  Said he'd never been happier.

On the other hand several other high achievers I knew in HS have gone on to be making mid 6 figures right now with a wife and kids and the whole shebang.  I used to beat myself up bad when I'd hear about their "success". 

I wasted a lot of time thinking that was "me".  Well, wasted is the wrong word...you can only do what you can do...you know?  And let's be honest, if you haven't pulled it together by 30 it's probably not going to happen.

I suppose the trick is to figure out what level of prostitution you're willing to accept and then to figure out the best way to monetize your cock sucking abilities.

There's a direct relationship of monetary opportunities to whoring tolerance it seems...unless you do your own thing.

Grapefruit said:

Back to churning out unimaginative overcooked dishes and working splits I go.

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Cups said:

Regardless of situation, I don't find living the life you want to lead as underachievement.    In fact it may be the only achievement life truly offers us.

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