We are borne into this world a shapeless ball of ego-less clay. At some point in our early development, other people begin to mold that ball of clay into some sort of form. Eventually, that clay will be exquisitely sculpted into the figure of our personality--sculpted completely by other people and the society in which we live.
The first and usually most influential sculptors of our personality are our parents. Looking at who I am and how I live today, I can see huge aspects of my parents' personalities reflected in my own. I've heard many people say (often with fright), "I'm turning into my parents" I told myself I would never let this happen to me, but I'm afraid to say that I can already relate to how those people feel.
Our siblings and teachers also have a huge part in sculpting our personalities. Our close friends may play an even bigger part. I am always noticing reflections of my friends' personalities (from past and present) in my own. Even people that we read about or see on TV can have a small part in shaping who we are.
What I'm trying to say is that we are nothing but reflections of other people. We are reflections of reflections of reflections. No one in this world is truly unique. No one's personality is completely their own.
This fact is frightening to me. It scares me how much of an influence other people have on us. Whether you like it or not, every person you meet is going to affect you and who you are in some way. Even people you've never met can have an effect on you without you even knowing.
It also scares me because it seems to suggest that we are all nothing but bits and pieces of each other, and that we will never be capable of originality since nothing about us is original. Who we are is simply a product of society.
Even when you make a decision or form an opinion about something, it is not really you that is doing that; it is everyone else who has ever had an impact on your personality. Even when you say "I think" or "I feel," you only think or feel that way because other people somehow taught you to think or feel that way.
If all this is true, though, then where do original thoughts and ideas come from? It is obvious that they do exist because new inventions and technology could not be created without them. Artists could not paint original pictures, poets could not write original poems, and musicians could not create original music if we were not somehow capable of creativity and originality.
So what is this part of us that can create original ideas and how does it form when everything else about us is formed by other people? Is it separate from the ego, or is it merely just a part of it? Are anti-social people more creative and original than people who are always around others? Does holding conversations with no one but yourself feed this other part of your brain and stimulate originality?
So many questions...
I don't really expect any answers. It's too difficult for me to even convey what I am really talking about with words. This is just something I have been thinking about a lot lately and thought maybe writing my thoughts down would help me sort out the puzzle.
Unfortunately, I'm still puzzled. My level of intelligence is too low right now to really understand where everyone else ends and the "you" that is capable of originality begins. I guess what I don't understand is how we are even capable of originality in the first place if we are nothing but a creation of society and other people.
Maybe I need to check my premises.
If you guys have any thoughts or insights on the subject that might help, please share them!
-RebelSteve
-------------------- Namaste.
Edited by RebelSteve33 (02/03/03 04:41 PM)
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