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OutThisLife
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Been reflecting a lot on my life lately.
#11164627 - 10/01/09 03:49 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I don't even know what to be, how to be, who to be, what to do, how to exist. I'm a pretty happy guy, very self aware and conscious of life around me. But what's the point?
Anyways, if you're interested in a good story [my story] then check this out: http://talasan.blogspot.com/2009/10/first-post-introduction.html
It's a short version of my life in text so far, tell me what you think.
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deranger
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11164652 - 10/01/09 03:52 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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damn, 19 year old father i would question my existence too
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Neuron
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11164676 - 10/01/09 03:55 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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OutThisLife said: I don't even know what to be, how to be, who to be, what to do, how to exist. I'm a pretty happy guy, very self aware and conscious of life around me. But what's the point?
Anyways, if you're interested in a good story [my story] then check this out: http://talasan.blogspot.com/2009/10/first-post-introduction.html
It's a short version of my life in text so far, tell me what you think.
Here's what most people do(and I'm not being sarcastic): 1. Fulfill social roles(father, boyfriend/spouse, student, etc.) 2. Figure out a stable means of getting money(perhaps get a degree first, to better support your child) 3. Be responsible
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OutThisLife
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: Neuron]
#11164890 - 10/01/09 04:28 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Neuron said:
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OutThisLife said: I don't even know what to be, how to be, who to be, what to do, how to exist. I'm a pretty happy guy, very self aware and conscious of life around me. But what's the point?
Anyways, if you're interested in a good story [my story] then check this out: http://talasan.blogspot.com/2009/10/first-post-introduction.html
It's a short version of my life in text so far, tell me what you think.
Here's what most people do(and I'm not being sarcastic): 1. Fulfill social roles(father, boyfriend/spouse, student, etc.) 2. Figure out a stable means of getting money(perhaps get a degree first, to better support your child) 3. Be responsible
Strange to hear, considering everybody else on this forum says to revolt against growing up.
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pfxtc
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11165178 - 10/01/09 05:23 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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you should probably be speedballing under a bridge
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Envix
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11165220 - 10/01/09 05:32 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I'd suggest going on a vision quest, but I don't see how you would have the time to do that :/
-------------------- smack a hoe out this dimension continue my ascension -bhad bhabie rip. todcasil, acid sloth, st1llnox, zappaisgod, big worm (sketch), tim b
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OutThisLife
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: Envix]
#11165368 - 10/01/09 06:01 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Yeah, I trip regularly to clear my head. I'd love to go on a vision quest, but after all my trips nothing changes. I know what I am, who I am, my place, what's right, what's wrong. But it doesn't matter.
I guess I take these messages for granted. But psychedelics definitely help to clear my head from stress for a while.
I just.. don't know how to live in the moment. :\
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Envix
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11165483 - 10/01/09 06:17 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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by vision quest, I meant spend 3 days in the wilderness with nothing but yourself and some clothes on you back. and maybe some water. clear-headed. no drugs. and most importantly, no clocks. You'll loose sense of time, which will in turn force you to live in the moment. I haven't done one but would really like to one day. It should really help in the whole "finding oneself" thing. It'd be cool to do it in a desert somewhere. but sandstorms suck. and landmines. you gotta hate them landmines.
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Edited by Envix (10/01/09 06:20 PM)
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CannabiShaman
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11165498 - 10/01/09 06:20 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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OP- I feel your pain.
Cannabis has been the biggest helper in this respect, but generally a part of me is wondering what the fuck I should be doing and I have lots of ideas too- just don't have good oppurtunities at the moment to execute them. I feel like I am stuck in a check mate right now. it also doesn't help that the job market as at an all time low...... i can't even get my own place
for what it is worth- meditation might be a good practice to take up
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OutThisLife
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: CannabiShaman]
#11165603 - 10/01/09 06:46 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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I feel like I have a lot inside that I need to let out.
I feel like I need to leave everything I know behind. I feel like I need to self destruct.
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CannabiShaman
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11165644 - 10/01/09 06:55 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Edited by CannabiShaman (10/01/09 07:10 PM)
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OutThisLife
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: CannabiShaman]
#11166008 - 10/01/09 08:18 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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<3 ty.
I just wish I knew how to snap into an old, happier, mindset of mine. I know that's a ghost chase, though. :|
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feifen
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: OutThisLife]
#11166113 - 10/01/09 08:42 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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Why? Stop bullshitting yourself
You can be happier than you ever could be, at any time.
What makes one time better than another?
You need to make your future. YOU are the future.
The way you make you're future is to live now. Stop bullshitting yourself
You know how to live in the now, shut up
Seriously... what is wrong with people. LIVE YOUR LIFE
You got one chance, one shot. This one life.
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CannabiShaman
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: feifen]
#11166332 - 10/01/09 09:16 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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You have a good point feifen , I'm almost considering putting away the bong for only the weekends - ive been thinking Cannabis makes me kind of inward and too much of a shaman sometimes
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Re: Been reflecting a lot on my life lately. [Re: dr_gonz]
#11166369 - 10/01/09 09:22 PM (14 years, 5 months ago) |
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dr_gonz said: false
Which part?
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