Realized said:
Hey everyone. I'm really getting sick of doubting myself and feeling like shit.
Stop doubting yourself.
As soon as I overcome something, something completely different comes in and takes its place.
Welcome to the human condition. Just keep peeling away the layers.
Anyways, For some reason I have began doubting everything I have ever thought or ever stood for.
Happens to the best of men, it's part of developing your own beliefs instead of settling for the ones passed down to you
My mind seems like it is stuck in a constant loop of thinking like a fundamental christian. I don't know how this began but it is probably one of the worst things I have ever experienced. I was better of when I realized I was just a brain.
tell me how a fundametal christian thinks.
I think this started when I realized how many Christians there still are and how everywhere I go I see christian related things.... I fully rejected Christianity when I was about 13,
You need not reject Christianity. Only follow it. And if you choose not to follow Christianity, what has been rejected?
became an atheist for about 2 years and eventually I got into Buddhism, mediation and all sorts of philosophy which lead me to going alittle crazy but also allowed me to discover alot of things out about myself and the world.
Realizing the truth will make you feel that way.
I finally felt like I figured myself out and could get on with life and now this has been going on for a few days.
things are exactly how they are. You are exactly where you are meant to be
I don't want to sound like I pride myself above others or anything
Identification with we, and rejection of they, creates an insatiable fear in the hearts of men. We simply all are.
but this also started when I realized how much different I was than any other person I encounter.
How dull the world would be if we all wore red hats.
It kinda freaked me out when I realized how many people I know still believe in creation and that the bible is a complete literal text which should be completely followed...
Then you would have really been freaked out on a daily basis if you lived in 1200ad.
Even though I reject it completely my mind always throws in doubts and what ifs.
Renunciation of a core belief system is akin systematically to reprogramming. But, there is also acceptance, which is much easier.
and since my problem is now with Christianity my mind is just going what if what if what if what if all the time. I make counter arguments in my mind for what I really think about it but because becoming a christian is one of my fears the what ifs always override what I really think about the topic which makes it impossible for me to think, rationalize and enjoy anything?.
In your mind. Who is this telling these things? In your mind, Who is this listening to that who is telling?
I can?t believe people would accept something that completely takes your mind and self. It is scaring the shit out of me thinking that I am going to become this.
You assume all Christians have the capacity to 'believe'.
Some of the what ifs are what if creationism and stuff is true. What if there is a hell. What if Jesus does come back. Basically think of an argument a fundamental christian would use and my mind is thinking of it and trying to justify it?. I mean even if it is true I will rightfully accept my place in hell before I accept something so dumb and absurd. If any of the fundamental Christians beliefs are correct I am convinced that the universe is evil lol. This is seriously scaring the shit out of my and makes me want to punch myself in the face for even conserving it.
If you want to believe... Do not believe in Christians. Believe in Christ. What does your heart tell you about Christ? What does your history books tell you about Christ? What does the aramaic and hebrew text tell you about Christ? I don't think Christ was an Advocate for Elderly Bingo, Wednesday night potluck, and Youth Volleyball.
I mean, I guess this might not be such a bad thing. Its kinda letting me get inside the mind of the majority but I am just worried I am going to be stuck like this and end up fucking my life up and never be able to experience free thought, individuality or joy again.
Another point for shame based religeon.
I really feel like a retard right now. Its so scary. Ever answer you look for is just in the bible lol. It requires not though, no work, no anything just blind faith and stupidity?.. I have read some of the bible before and got completely different meaning from what fundamentalist do but my mind just wont get off the topic because I can?t disprove it.
The bible was a well written spiritual manual. It comes in real handy if you're out in the fields with your flock for months on end with no access to a spiritual leader. It was written so that one can surmise his own spiritual agenda.
I feel like one of those people who argue completely from the bible and there justification for it is saying its in the bible.
Who do you want to argue with and why? If someone believes that according to the bible, extra-marital sex is not cheating as long as it's anal sex, then that's 100% fine by me.
I feel insane right now and it is scary to think that this is considered normal and a large portion of our population is stuck in this thought process. I just wish I could get it to end so any help is appreciated.
The insane feeling is your brain going haywire trying to make sense of things now that you're dismissing your belief system. Calm your brain down. Breathe.
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