Alright, I will try to elaborate. I have found it quite difficult to explain with out sounding crazy, but i will give it a go. I bought a book that gives instrutions to opening your third eye, aka 6th chakra, which lies near between the eyebrows. Basically you sit still and look there with your eyes closed, soudns abstract, but not really with your physical eyes, i tried to feel it. After a while the area began to tingle, and shine with an indigo, purplish light, some tiems brighter than others. Anyway, tripping always made this process super easy. One night i took a hefty dose, around 7 grams, they were weak, but still a heavy trip, I was meditationt to TOol third eye and trying to blast my third eye open further. After a while i actually felt a very tangible pressure at the bsae of my spine, almost like a baseball was trying to make its way up, and so it did, and it went to my third eye, and then all hell broke loose, i strated tripping harder than i ever have, and i felt again, a very tangible, physical bolt of what seemed like electricity shoot into my hands and then my body tingled, not a subtle tingle, but a very real fuckin tingle, for what ever reason, i started to feel like i was dying i dont know why but it just felt thta way, at that point i flipped out and had my wife drive me to the ER, i said my goodbyes, sure iw as about to die, and anyway, i never went in, came down from my trip, and didnt know what to think. Well i got over my fear or having a bad trip, and i started eat shrooms again, and the exact same thing happend again, this time i knew death would not be the result, so i just said fuck it and let it happen, and thsi time, the energy traveling up my spine felt, well it is hard to describe, utter bliss, like at that moment i knew and felt God does exist, and this is what divinity feels like. I also got pretty good with my third eye and could travel through these tunnels, not in an abstract metaphorical way but, i felt it. Anyway, i was able to do this with just smoking some weed after a while, and after some time i bought a booko on the chakras that mentioned kundalini and all that shit, which is when i realized what was going on. I began kundalini yoga which made gave some interesting results, i could see my aura in the mirrior, even while sober! Now though when i trip, its like this kundalini energy decides to release itself, and my last 3 trips, which were all in the span of 3 weeks, it seemed like more was getting released, and all along the way i felt the emense pressure in my skull, and have sudden bolts of energy when i fart or something, this was not an issue its normal. But last time, last night specifically, i couldnt even enjoy my trip, the expierence of the kundalini rising became so intense, that i didnt think my mind and body coudl take it, and i no longer had control of how muych and when it released. I would feel my walsl closing in and know its going to happen and avoidign it was pointless, it just made me feel all backed up, so i jsut let it have its way with me, and i would get graphic, i mean graphic and specific scenes of like paraskeltic, draggon, alien like fuckers all around that clsoe in on me and when they seem to merge with me, is when it releases, and agin, still a tangiblel pressur like i have to vomit energy out, goes up my spine, out my head, or thrid eye, and sometimes it feels again, like i am one with the cosmos, god, the divine, what ever you wish to call it, i dont even know what to call it. Should i stop tripping, is it speeding this up too fast? Well i have gone and done it, i sounded like a maniac, hopefully some people will knwo what im sayin, thanks for everyones concern.
-------------------- i tell you this, no eternal reward will forgive us now for Wasting the dawn...
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