i really need to get back into a serious relationship. no nonsense half-assed relationship, a genuine one. i don't get out much, but like today for example, i got blood work done, went to the Y swimming, and picked up a prescription at walmart.
the girl who took my blood i flirted with the whole time, just stupid things like i saw her book bag for college and asked where she was going and talked about the cold weather and made comments i knew she would like about her sweater and her general outfit.
see, but these girls always flirt back, even older woman (40+, most 30 year olds tend to look past me). this is why i do it because they don't help the situation any and i'm not always the one instigating the flirting. usually though because i don't look around much and people are hesitant to talk to me i think, i am the first spoken
the swim Y girl is still in highschool, 16, i always flirt with her though. i want to have sex with her pretty bad. i've masturbated thinking about her a couple times. we could/would have sex and she wouldn't tell anyone and it'd be great. and sex in the water is always so great, but i'd do her in and out of the pool. probably start outside on the tile floor and make my way in and pool her down with me. she's pale, i like fair skin a lot. i miss my ex, gf for 5 years, she was exactly my type in everyway physically.
and some girl at the pickup line at walmart said something to me so i said a lot to her and she wasn't hesitant so i said more. i might have gotten her if i was persistent, but i never am because i never close the conversation, i just flirt and then put my head down and say take care/have a goodnight. i mean if someone really caught my interest i'd come out and introduce myself formally and talk more and ask to dinner or to take a nap with me. but i'm not working and i'm back with my parents and i've got nothing interesting woman want to hear going on, i don't even drink really so if i went to the bar she'd drink and i'd have a vodka tonic and then water. i can't really talk about my past because i was with my ex and we lived in different states and that's when i was actually out doing things but how is that relevant now?
i'm good with relationships and i miss being in one. i'd take consecutive sex in place though, random sex is fine. sex is the one thing i'm confidant with and it's rare people are confidant with sex so it makes me feel better. if we got to know each other by sex rather than socialization i'd be so much better off.
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