Things had gotten tough. I was beginning a process of spiritual evaluation, a long, painful journey? My friend had recently convinced me that he was in fact in contact with the OTHER SIDE, and I was quickly moving from the mindset of the empiricist, non-believer to that of one of the faithfully enlightened. I decided to try to grow my own mushrooms. They had been coming to me in visions when I slept and I couldn't get them out of my mind when I was awake. So I tried to grow them. I tried and tried? I tried to grow Azurescens, Cubensis, and Cop. Cyanecens. Nothing. I felt demoralized. I thought that maybe the mushrooms didn't find me worthy. It was mid summer when I came to that nexus. Autumn?. Wonderful Autumn was just months away.It was early October, and I awoke from another series of dreams that involved mushrooms. The image of a particular garden setting in the Seattle Arboretum - a garden setting which I had never visited, yet I knew it was in the arboretum? spooky - had revealed itself in my dream. I climbed into my pants and boots and willfully stomped out the door with my latte in tow, my wife calling out to me? Where are you going??? A crusty morning smile and a wave and I was off.
The still, wet morning hung over me like a cold, all-knowing eye as I walked through the trees. I half an hour into the trek: the garden. The Garden setting of my dream? right there. I just knew. I stopped and exhaled. A long, slow breath, a dragon's smoldering steam teeming from my guts into the air before me. I watched my breath, the mark of a dying fire, of failing blindness, spilled into the shadows beneath a Japanese Maple. And as my breath flagged, the new was drawn in. And As I breathed in? IN washed a sweet smell. A smell that brought back my youth. The smell of earth. Not just dirt? but that particular smell of digging, from when I was young. What WAS that smell. Now I knew. It was.. it IS, the smell of the simpler life form we know as fungus. It was everywhere. It rushed into me and filled me with a purpose unlike any that I had ever known. A directive. I turned and looked down.. And BAM> about ten feet away, these tiny little caramel-colored heads peeked over the bed of decaying leaves at me. I had seen many mushrooms in my life. I had seen perhaps thirty species that morning alone, but I knew - I KNEW that these marked the steps of el dorado - these glowed? they shown in the green / blue light of shady day.
The tiny, undeveloped caps of what turned out to be Ps. Cyanescens, caught my eye and my heart. I was hooked.
Although these first few, minute specimens were few and barely visible, the marriage of my eyes and their countenance heralded a union of man and mushroom that to this day, has yet to fail to produce a find on any given day. That day alone I came home with well in excess of a pound of mushrooms. Hardy, brown and white and blue and bitter. And perfect. I picked far more mushrooms than I could possibly use, and still do to this day? but I believe it is my purpose. I believe that it is by design that I should find and share mushrooms and help them convey their ancient knowledge to the blind and deaf - or the hard of hearing and those who need glasses. Money will never blemish my endeavor, nor will greed or carelessness. I will, whether I want it or not, always be one of the chosen few who the mushroom (gods) trust to carry out their will.
Now if you'll excuse me, I must log on to some porn and give the monkey a thorough thrashing?.
m
[This message has been edited by mattso (edited June 03, 2000).]