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I really wish I could change things... like us. and I cant help but to push it. but. I just miss you, being in your arms, kisses, 2 second hugs, just anything. ya know!?! I like that 'right feeling' when being with you. I want everything to be alright.... I even openly admitted to Brad and Jarett that you turned me down. ha. Even though its was because I annoyed you, I still put it that way.... not to make you sound like the bad guy. They just asked if we were together or not. I said no, I pushed it and you said no. and they laughed. and I didnt whine or bitch about it. I thought it was pretty funny myself. I really am fine with this whole U of I thing. but. I guess you'll never know how I feel until you return. I take it you wont call me or anything. And. I dont know if you will think of telling me what happened as 'reporting' to me. but. I would like to know. not to keep tabs on you. but. I dont know. Just to see if we are moving on or what not.
welllllllllllllll.... I hope you write back, or call me, or something. I really really wanna talk to you. I miss being able to call and you always picking up and us just talking. no matter if we are angry and what not. my effing ear hurt so bad, and you didnt pick up, or call me back. i needed some serious help. I was crying (from the pain) and I just didnt know what to do. but. I layed down with ice on my ear to hopefully numb it and after it was practically frozen and hurting from the cold and not touching it.... I yanked it out. which was hard cause it was a zig zagged ear piece. Ill show you later.
bye michael.
please call or email or something. anything. i want everything to be ok.

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DeathCompany said:

haha who says "effing" let alone spells it out.

Anyways you should get a new girflriendYou'll completely forget about the old one. See they are only special when your with them. Fill the gap.

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heartofalion said:

If anything a fuck buddy but my confidence isnt high enough to have sex with someone else.

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heartofalion said:

like i miss her saying stuff like this

this is from an email from about two months ago

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I really wish I could change things... like us. and I cant help but to push it. but. I just miss you, being in your arms, kisses, 2 second hugs, just anything. ya know!?! I like that 'right feeling' when being with you. I want everything to be alright.... I even openly admitted to Brad and Jarett that you turned me down. ha. Even though its was because I annoyed you, I still put it that way.... not to make you sound like the bad guy. They just asked if we were together or not. I said no, I pushed it and you said no. and they laughed. and I didnt whine or bitch about it. I thought it was pretty funny myself. I really am fine with this whole U of I thing. but. I guess you'll never know how I feel until you return. I take it you wont call me or anything. And. I dont know if you will think of telling me what happened as 'reporting' to me. but. I would like to know. not to keep tabs on you. but. I dont know. Just to see if we are moving on or what not.
welllllllllllllll.... I hope you write back, or call me, or something. I really really wanna talk to you. I miss being able to call and you always picking up and us just talking. no matter if we are angry and what not. my effing ear hurt so bad, and you didnt pick up, or call me back. i needed some serious help. I was crying (from the pain) and I just didnt know what to do. but. I layed down with ice on my ear to hopefully numb it and after it was practically frozen and hurting from the cold and not touching it.... I yanked it out. which was hard cause it was a zig zagged ear piece. Ill show you later.
bye michael.
please call or email or something. anything. i want everything to be ok.

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heartofalion said:

I do not want another GF AT ALL. I dont want this shit ever again.

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heartofalion said:

First of all, Im not a junkie on herion or anything. The only drug i have ever done is Salvia, i havent even smoked weed.

Anyways i after my salvia experiences i wanted something more. Something that lasted longer and had visuals and what not, not just something that mindfucked you for 5 minutes. So i started reading up on Shrooms LSD and Mescaline.(Disclaimer: i am not looking to shrooms to get fucked up i want to have a psychadelic expierances along with the insight that can come with it) Anyways i started talking to a friend of mine at work who has done above mentioned drugs. Now he is going to be able to get me some shrooms. So i told my girlfriend of 3 years of this interest and she pretty much told me it was either i chose her and never satisfied my curiosity, or tried these things but lost her. So i chose the second option and she broke up with me.(BTW we are 18) Now please dont excuse this for high school drama and that shit thats not the kind of responses im looking for.

My question to you is, does this make me a bad person? I feel like shes not letting me be who i want to be, but am i wrong in thinking that?

Any answers would be wonderful, thank you.


added and update here http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/7063039#Post7063039

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Liquidkick said:

change her number to DO NOT PICKUP/CALL or completely delete it out of your phone and don't pick up numbers that don't come up with a user ID/caller ID

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AlCapwn said:

Good luck on opening her mind, if that's what you're trying to do.

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