Help me out. I want to get this story off my chest. However small it is, it feels huge to me

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Help me out. I want to get this story off my chest. However small it is, it feels huge to me

#6322917 - 11/30/06 11:26 PM (19 years, 10 months ago)

This is just something that happened to me and I've felt angry and ashamed ever since.

Months ago I was woken up by a knock on the door. It was some random black guy (details..don't get mad) and he said to me "Man, I really need help. My tent at the Festival got hit by a tree last night. I'll give you 20 bucks to drive me to the park." I told him I would, and I went downstairs to get dressed etc.

Before I keep going:
1.) There was a festival going on in the park that day
2.) There was a HUGE storm the night before
3.) I heard the words $20 bucks and it got to me. I let greed get me.

So, I drive him to the park. He talked a lot about his tent, said he'd give me a sausage when we got there. It all sounded good. He also talked about titty bars and cheating on his wife. If he even had a wife. Apparently his name was "John".

It veered when he wanted me to just take his phone and wait for his call. I apparently wasnt supposed to go with him to his tent. But, I can't think under pressure. I can't do much of anything when it's not expected. So I just nodded and said sure. Took his phone, waited. I got bored and went to the park to kill some time. He then called me, I ran back to my car and picked him up in the middle of the street where he flagged me down. Immediately he wanted me to drive him somewhere else. He said "Man, you smoke?" At the time I didn't, but I was/am down with personal choice. However, I really didn't want to drive him somewhere to get weed. He said "I'll give you another $20 bucks to drive me to my guys house." I said I didn't want to get near his house and he assured me he'd get out well before the house and keep me away. I said sure like I always do and we started driving.

However, when he said stop we were at the house. It was shady as hell too. It occured to me that it was a crack house. All the windows were broken, it was terrible. But for some reason I sat there and waited. I risked my ass in front of some shady crack house, waiting for some guy I didn't know to buy crack so he could get back in my car. Why? God, why?

I waited, and he came back. He said we were done and we should go back to his "house". At the time I almost still believed that he had a house. It was conveniently close to my house too..

So before we leave, he pays me a sum total of $13 dollars. I was pissed off inside but I just let him walk all over me. I was like.."Whatever..it's cool..." even though it wasn't. I drop him off and am basically just stunned. I wasn't even mad at the time. I didn't know what I felt.

Here's where it gets really retarded. He comes back, hours later. He said "Man, I need you again. One more ride, come on." I told him no, no more rides. I at least did that. He wouldn't leave and he eventually said "Ok, can I at least get money for a cab or bus ride?". I told him no. Then he said "Ok man, how about this? I'll give you my keys and my watch for $10 bucks. I'll come back with your $10." I thought to myself, incorrectly, "well he wouldn't want to lose his keys or watch". Why would he even have keys? He obviously didnt have a car or a house. His watch probably cost him $0.30. So anyway, I finally agreed. When he left I felt like it was a poor decision. Before he walked away I told him "You better come back man. I'm gonna lose a lot of faith in people if you burn me." I don't know why I told him that. He didn't care and I didn't know if I meant it.

So, obviously he never came back. I kept the watch and keys for like 2 weeks before I became angry at the site of them and threw them away.

He took such advantage of me and I just let him do it. I could have told him no, no rides in the first place. I let some stranger get in the car with me. Some stranger in Atlanta...it was pretty shady. Then I stayed when he wouldn't let me go to his "tent". He obviously didnt have one. I even asked some people at the Festival if they knew a "John".."sold sausage"..nobody. But I kept going despite all the lies. Then I risked my ass for him to buy drugs because I didn't know what to do. Then he paid me $13 dollars and I just smiled like a weakling. Then he came back and burned me AGAIN, at my own house.

I don't know how I feel about that. Many of my friends know about this except for the crack house part. That's the part that gets me the most. I can't believe the risk I took right there, all for the sake of some money I didn't get. It was such a weak point on all accounts. Greed, weakness, fear.

That's all I got. It feels good to have written it down.

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Ishmael
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