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Bluntman
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Feeling Shitty About Life
#1933284 - 09/19/03 05:19 PM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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Im still a teenager and Im gonna be graduating high school soon, Ive been feeling pretty shitty lately because Im not really having much fun with my life. I should be out with friends having fun all the time, but I go to school 5 days and week and work monday-thursday. I am so bored during the week, and most weekends I dont do anything exciting.
Anyway, Ive been in love with this girl since like the 8th grade, so many years...we have the greatest conversations, I think shes beautiful and I know she like me to. Ive had chances to ask her out, but Im afraid to and I dont really know why. What Im really afraid of, is not being with her and in 15 years looking back and regretting my life. I imagine myself going through life with this girl over and over again. I really want to marry her and have a family and shit.
My parents are also divorced. They have been for about 5 years and it never really bothered me as much as it should have until recently. My dad moved away about 2 weeks ago. He lost his job a few months ago(the job hes had since he was 20 and was going to retire from in a few years). He owes a lot of money to credit cards and shit and I want to help but I dont know what I can do...
My best friend, the kid Ive been friends with since forever got his car a few weeks ago. No joke, I havnt even seen him in about a week and ahalf. He hangs out with other kids and brings them places and shit..it really depresses me. We used to hang out everyday and now he doesnt have time for me, nor does he even show any interest in me. He doesnt miss hanging out with me and shit, and Im the one sitting home thinking about why while hes out enjoying himself.
Im also real lazy in school. I dont do my homework just because I dont feel like it. I am graduating soon, I need to go to college and start my life. I have no idea what I want to do. The only thing I know is I want someone to be with because I dont wanna sit here and do this alone....
sorry, I sorta rambled.
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shaggy101
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How much confidence do you have? It sounds like you got a lot going for ya dude. if you have confidence you shouldnt have any promblems, in fact it sounds like things could turn out great! If not there are alot of things you can do to improve man..
So if youre not having fun, go have fun.. find stuff ya dig- music,art, different scenes, nature and just start doing it. You are obviously motivated since you go to school and work, so make a plan and carry it out. my advice make a move for the girl. Girls can bring amazing amounts of happiness you could ask her out(if you feel that would work for you) but I would recomend just finding that good vibe moment and kissing her, then let a relationship develope.
The parents thing is a hard one, if I read you right you are mature enough to turn things around and be there for them. Talk and listen, maybe take your dad out? try and just talk about mellow things that can keep his mind off bigger issues, yet at the same time it will remind him of one of the biggest things. Its hard helping your own parents on that level but trust me it can be done, and it will probally help you in the proccess.
I have had the same promblems with a friend as you, but it might not be that he doesnt care. Maybe try talking to him? If it is just him being a asshole then dont worry about it! that sounds hard but there are alot of good people out there who would probally love being your friend, but more then likely I think hes just stoked about his ride and maybe high on some false "cool"
Not to down school, but if it isnt effecting your graduating and college, its still chill. I almost never did homework aced all my tests and pulled enough C's and D's to graduate. If you plan on attending a university though it is time to focus, Check this out man I am 21 if I had went straight to college when I was 17 I would have graduated and started some sweet job already, its never to late I am starting in the spring, just a though though..
more then anything I say seek for something deep, what would you consider studying in school?..maybe think about Philosophy, Science, or Religion? Those topics tend to put things into perspective , also if you find something you may find your promblems fixing themselves..sounds wierd maybe but think of a healthy mushroom growing from strong mycelium.
heh maybe consider a mushroom trip, they can be most productive. about that being alone..you have a girl you like who likes you to? make it happen
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Bluntman
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Re: Feeling Shitty About Life [Re: shaggy101]
#1933603 - 09/19/03 07:50 PM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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wow bro i just watched a movie and relaxed,and i dont even give ahsit anymore...must be a teenage mood swing, but w.e. ive always had a lot of confidence and i do go out and shit but its smoking pot and hanging out with the same old kids, nothing new or exciting you know? that one kid though, fuck him. im not even gonna worry about that crap. fuck school to...im passing by more than enough i dont need straight a's. thanks a lot thou man, just typing that all out was better than any advice i could get.
ill get that girl by the way
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flatline
psycho + logical
Registered: 08/02/03
Posts: 120
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yea what you're saying reminds me of myself a couple years ago. nothing really changed though. still feel shitty, but it's like i'm numb to the pain most of the time and i just don't feel any kind of emotions at all. i feel disattached from society completely but i just keep on going for the hope some good luck will catch up with me. keep your head up ... and just remember that your time having your problems is such a small portion of the bigger puzzle - you've got years ahead of you. peace
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Cracka_X
Spiritual Dirt Worshipper
Registered: 01/25/03
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just do it.
live your life, b/c in 20 to 40 yrs from now, you're gonna regret all the things you didn't do.
-------------------- The best way to live is to be like water For water benefits all things and goes against none of them It provides for all people and even cleanses those places a man is loath to go In this way it is just like Tao ~Daodejing
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Strumpling
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regarding the girl: get "closer" to her as soon as possible because the longer you wait the deeper into "friendsville" you travel, which is not a fun place to be if you're not looking for simple friendship.
-------------------- Insert an "I think" mentally in front of eveything I say that seems sketchy, because I certainly don't KNOW much. Also; feel free to yell at me. In addition: SHPONGLE
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