finally i found the courage to do this, and i liked it, but i don't know if i'am able to explain in word what i felt
15.30 - started eating 20 grams of grounded amanitas as their taste gets worst every time i've tried it, i swallowed them with milk but it took me 15 minutes, and the taste is still shitty; also taken a pill (postafen, 25mg) to reduce nausea
16.00 - little bit of nausea
16-24 - nausea increasing; and things seem to expand a little bit when i stare at them
16.51 - nausea almast gone but i feel the void in my stomach; great clarity of mind
17.00 - i'm staring at tha map of the city, seems like i can control the process of slightly
visuals, and there's like a an invisible cone rotaing in front of the map (i can barely see the air it is moving), not really an hallucination
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---- somewhere here i begun to feel strange my mind was split in two, a little part still conscious and the greatest part just shaping new thoughts very fast; yes, i knew it was me who was
thinking all these things, but i could't stop it so from now on when i say "i felt" ir's really something between "i felt" and "i thought"
i begun to feel me as an "entity" shaped like a short stick and there were other entities around me ... i was pushed to close my eyes and let go, and so i did for 30minutes, and i was kinda slepping... then when i woke up i felt something (who i called "the mushroom") was attracting me in his
center, and in my mind there was this kind of attracting fluids flashing ritmically for all the time... i was very confused, i felt like the mushroom wanted me to sleep and let myself go, so i tried to contrast the sleepy feeling... then the mushroom started to force me to puke, and i was really hesitating about what to do...
seemed like i could decide to puke or not...but finally i didn't do it... (but i've done it now, 22.30, as i was witing the previous word an istantly nausea has come to me and i puked part of my dinner ...now i'm fine...reaaly weird!) i kept contasting the mushroom, and a female-mushroom character came up for few minutes, and i was supposed to "marry" her...as i did't want to, she immediatly had some little mushroom babies, and i was the father...(she has stolen my dna from my saliva!) i'm sorryn i can't explain the way my mind was thinking these things...it was my mind, i still had little control on it, but it was very fast, easy and natural for my mind to generate these situations...
as i tried to write down my thoughts, i couldn't really follow my mind and it was terribly hard to find the right leeters on the keyboard... ------
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18... - "ihavt rha feeling the kungwasr so eac his ahiskianother nushhweƬrmmeni YHINK ykjig happejing" (this what i actually was writing down...very funny) ,my bryide is pushing me and she'having sons wiht my saliva, as a mushroom! i force myself no to sleep... go away you greedy mushroom entity! strange way of walking, seems like the shroom can influence the movements of my body 19.00 - it's like my mind is faster than normal, if i look at the map it's like an hallucino-vision and i can influence the "melting things"directions
19.23 getting happy, and i heard like a "wha" around me (i'm not really sure it was something real)
19.42 - now feeling good, no nausea, just high and wavy, and time seems going a little slower than normal, but the main problem is in typing the right letters
20.21 - ok i don't think i'm gonna get more this time: i'm high, the slightely visuals keep on going, but i'm not getting higher... maybe the pill has blocked something from the mushroom? .........
next time i wanna try 25 grams, but the problem is thet i can't really stand the taste of the dried mushroom ...somewhere i have read it's possible to make tea from FRESH mushrooms (they taste good...) and i also know the gel-tabs method, but anybody can tell me where these gel-tabs are sold?
...waiting for comments, help, suggestions, whatever!
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