ive been having some interesting experiences in the past few years, especially since i started tripping. I dont really know why im posting this except to hear if other people have had similar experiences or any input on what im saying...
First, i came to notice that animals seem to have a special affinity for me. When i go somewhere, and there are animals around, usually dogs or cats, they come up to me, follow me around, and sit very close to me whenever i rest...almost always ignoring the other people, even their owners... Ive always loved animals, and have always surrounded myself with them, but only recently has this particular strange behavior been brought to my attention by a few friends....
Also, i keep being told that im an "old soul" or have this sense of "wisdom" around me...im 22 years old, but nobody thinks im younger than 28-30, despite my baby-face....its a little odd when my mother and her friends come to me for help and advice on life...
Also, there was one day while tripping on shrooms and a low dose of e that i went into this trance where it felt like my consciousness was sinking deep within myself....a strange "force" began building in my neck and slowly crawled up my face and centered itself on the center of my forehead, it felt like it was literally prying my third eye open....
Then, this past weekend, i was up at an outdoor party, i was on lsd and some mdma when this guy i had never seen before came walking up to me. He was japanese, and had a very interesting vibe about him, very peaceful, centered, hard to really describe. Suddenly, he just grabbed my hand, placed his other hand on my arm and went into this trance-like state. He did that for about 30 seconds, then came out of it, looked at me, smiled and told me that my color was "white." I didnt know at all what he meant, and since im caucasian, i said "yeah, i AM white." and laughed. Then he stopped me, and said "no, you're white from the inside." I didnt know what to say, so i asked him what that meant, and he said "that means that you are blessed." A particularly heavy moment given my state of mind.... He did it to a friend of mine, and said that he was deep, which is just about the best word to describe him...
I dont know what it is, its strange....ive always felt this connection with everything and everyone. I have always gravitated to the outdoors, i always tend to put others ahead of my own desires, i am happy by giving my posessions to others in order to make them smile, i dont know....ive even tried to become more of a jerk so that some people wouldnt take advantage of me, and it just doesnt work...
So, have others had experiences like this? I would like to believe it, for some obvious reasons, but i dont want to become self-delusional...i just dunno what to think....though, ive always had this drive to make a difference, and im about to start writing some commentary on society in hopes that it will wake some of the walking-dreamers that we encounter every day to the horrible workings of the current world....
ok, this is pointless, thanks for reading....
-------------------- True wisdom is the knowledge that nothing is impossible except for absolute knowledge.
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