Evening, I am a regular mushroom eater for mental health and it has been great. My schedule has varied from once a week to every few months, basically just whether I feel up to it or not. One things for sure is the dosing varies greatly regardless of weight just depending on how strong the particular mushrooms are. Anyway last week I had one of the best reset type trips to memory it was just a great night under the stars and I drank a barleywine and listened to music I believe that was 3 grams or 3.5. This week the weather was nice so I wanted to go for it again and I upped it to 4 grams and then I had .33 a couple hours later. All was well they kicked in within 45 min and I was having a great time. About an hour and a half in I was feeling very connected to the universe and just really enjoying my time. I had this ‘great’ idea to go get a stick of incense and light it and bring it outside. This is where my night took a turn. I go inside and it made me realize how hard I was tripping because I was having open eye morphing type visuals. So I got the incense which is resin and I broke the stick a bit and it was sticky and started getting on my hands and I couldn’t get it lit, I was having a very difficult time seeing everything accurately and staying coordinated to light it, it immediately sent me into a state of discomfort. Finally I got it lit and walked outside and realized it was a bit windy and I had no good place to put it and I was like wtf am I even doing. So I ran it under water to put it out and just went back out to chill. Well through all this which felt like a half hour but was probably five minutes by the time I went back outside my whole vibe was totally shifted, I just had an extreme sense of self consciousness and just viewing myself as being very impaired, when I shroom I do not view it as impairment I view it as a state of higher consciousness so to speak and in this moment it sucked me right out of that and it was just like I just felt like this guy who was all messed up that couldn’t really think straight. I tried to move past this feeling and get back to my cosmic groove and honestly I just wasn’t able to the rest of the night. At this point I was about an hour and a half into the trip I’d say and I got a barleywine to try to lighten my mood and drank it slow for a few hours and the rest of the night I just didn’t feel like it was a really mysitcal type feeling I just couldn’t shake the feeling of kind of being impaired, barleywine aside.
Now I take this as a lesson learned and I think next time I’m going to dial back to 3 grams to stay a little more coherent, but it was just jarring to me to lose that magical feeling mid trip. I love mushrooms and will continue learning and using them as a tool but I will definitely dial it back that bit next time around or maybe just stay inside. But I wanted to check in with you all to see what experiences you have with moments like this where things seem great but then something just throws you out of whack the rest of the trip, I’m guessing that’s really not that uncommon.
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Before government, before currency, before countries and religion, there was the earth as it naturally existed, unaltered by humanity and without strict policy to follow, to fit in with societies expectations. This is a true life the way the cosmos intended it, humanities intervention holds no power in the natural intelligence. Mushrooms offer a connection to those natural origins.
Edited by TubularPsychedelia (09/07/26 05:44 PM)
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