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Unfolding Nature Shop: Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order

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I fucking hate every aspect of my life
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I have nothing but total and utter hatred for my life. Nothing remotely positive will ever happen in my life. I’m fucking failure, loser, and unwanted.

I’m not looking for any support or help I’m just venting here instead of slicing my own neck right now.

Edited by Anonymous (05/18/19 04:59 PM)

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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Wake up, Nature is God, for starters. Now your assignment is to watch Blue Planet and Planet Earth. Once you are properly educated, you kiss the ground and thank nature for where you are at and be guided. I am beyond religion and people and humble before Nature. Watch ants in particular. After, preying mantises.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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I’m right there with you, people have managed to suck every ounce of quality out of this life.  Congratulations we aren’t even allowed to just live, we are born directly into it from right out of the womb.  Certain people need the Stalin treatment, them and their bitches.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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There's nothing positive in your life? Nothing at all? How did you end up hating your life this severely?

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #4]
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No there isn’t anything or anyone positive in my life

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1] * 2
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Confirmation bias is a real bitch.

I truly don't believe you. There's no one that doesn't have at least one good thing going for them.

I'm not surprised that many fail to see what that could be though.

Life is hard, and it's much harder to see the good than the bad.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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Anonymous #1 said:
No there isn’t anything or anyone positive in my life


I dont believe this. But i havent lived your life so i dont know.

I see suicide appropiate in only two situations. One, some kind of horrible forced slavery. The other is dying from a terminal illness. Do you face one of these things?

If not, i dont believe suicide should be considered. Are you spiritual? What do you believe happens after you die?

I believe in the afterlife and from what Ive heard from psychics is that suicide is punished in the afterlife. If this actually happens, would you accept the punishment of committing suicide?

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #5]
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The bad far outweighs the good and oftentimes it’s just fleeting. I attempted to re-invent my life changing directions, and I’m still back at square one. Sometimes we just have wave our white flag and realize things will never get better. Now i just have to decide how much longer I want to tolerate all of this.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #4] * 1
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What is truly the value of life? Because some religious stooge told you human life is valuable? Yet people die daily in a variety of ways. None of this shit matters if you’ve found your happiness or whatever good for you. For some of us that day isn’t happening

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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So whats the plan with your life? Move to a completely new area? Do u not have any goals or wishes that u want to complete? Anything to strive for at all?

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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Anonymous #1 said:
I have nothing but total and utter hatred for my life. Nothing remotely positive will ever happen in my life. I’m fucking failure, loser, and unwanted.

I’m not looking for any support or help I’m just venting here instead of slicing my own neck right now.


I feel for you but I also feel it important to point out, it's really all perspective.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #6]
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I just want to die

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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You dont need to die if you dont want to.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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Anonymous #1 said:
I just want to die


Then kill yourself? Nothing is truly stopping you. I'm not trying to encourage you to commit suicide, but trying to help you see that what you are fantasizing about is not death itself, but the IDEA of death

You say that the bad severely outweighs the good, but that means that there IS some good in your life. Focus on that. You are focusing all of your attention and energy on the bad. Why? Why should the things that give your life value be held down by the things that subtract from it?

You have it in you to be happy, if you so choose. Fantasizing about suicide can feel pretty good when you hate yourself, but suicide itself won't feel good. You can choose to be dead if you want, it's not that hard to kill yourself. Just know that all the good things in your life will go away once you make that ultimate decision

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #7]
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My life won’t get better as matter of fact it will get worse before it returns to this state of numbness. I’ve been experiencing this wave for nearly 20 years. There isn’t some treatment that can fix my life or the way I feel. Right now I’m in this holding pattern of misery and just waiting for the wheels to really to start coming off. Is my life horrible to an outsider absolutely not but for me o feel trapped in this hell that I won’t climb out of.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1]
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Anonymous #1 said:
trapped in this hell that I won’t climb out of.


That's your problem. I spent a decent bit of time in hell myself. Took many failed attempts at trying to climb out of it. Often wanted to give up.

Kept trying and managed to climb out eventually though.

Sounds like you've just given up.

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #5] * 1
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Anonymus #1,

I've spent decades of my life feeling what I imagine is a similar self-contempt and despair that you describe.  Through almost 3 years of depth oriented psychotherapy I've learned to be kinder to myself however I'm still left with that feeling of meaninglessness and emptiness.

I seem unable to heal myself.  I guess I responded in the hope that knowing that perhaps your not utterly alone in how you feel may help.

Edited by Anonymous (06/12/19 03:47 PM)

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #8]
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How do you get through the days?

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #1] * 2
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At my worst...it's hard to say. When the psychological pain became to much I would go completely numb.  When the numbness cut me off from feeling anything the pain would return. Even though I constantly daydreamed about suicide I guess I still held on hoping that I would find a way to "fix" myself and find some sort of happiness. 

Thing's have improved. Being able to discuss and explore my despair in the presence of a compassionate other was healing in some ways.  But the emptiness...It remains.  I guess I hold out hope that there's an answer something that will take it away and give me purpose. I'm still searching.

How about you? How do you get through the days?

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Re: I fucking hate every aspect of my life [Re: Anonymous #8]
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I don’t have some great philosophy as to why I keep going. I’m just here existing the hardest days are the ones where I literally feel like this internal pain is killing me. Unfortunately this pain can be triggered by a number of things. At one time I did believe things would pass and the pain would dissipate. But now I realize it just ebbs and flows sometimes it’s low and sometimes it’s high. Idk when the pain swings too high I want to bash my head through a brick wall or swerve my car and go off the bridge. I guess right now it’s just a waiting game till my breaking point.

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