sorry to start the year with a downer of a post but i wanted to air it rather than keep things in i feel this is the best place to discuss this as your all strangers to me and can give an unbiased opinion on a situation that occur ed yesterday.
before i get to it a bit of family history
I'm 25 my father died 15 years ago and have been quite close to my mum and sister for most our time together, as i grew older and started taking cannabis(13/14). i felt a little distanced from them but then became close to my sister again as we got older and she used to hang with me n mates when chillin, but she had problems and hardly went to school, at 16 she had a kid with a heroin addict (P) and since then she has changed alot!(now 21) i lost my job 4 years ago as a chef for a number of reasons and have been out of work since with depression/social anxiety but am on the up thanks to some counseling and 5htp.
incident 1 xmas just gone this christmas my mum was abroad with her husband and i was due to spend it with my sister, niece, and her ex boyfriend (P), i have gotten used to him but still never really liked him, and it wouldn't be the first christmas i spent with him but now they were separated i told my sis i wasn't looking forward to it and really didn't want to be in the same room, come xmas day i cooked the main dinner but as it was ready too soon after breakfast and a starter no one was that hungry, the 3 of them left shortly after to visit P's family for a bit while i stayed behind, which i was ok with, about an hour later p came in grabbed a few things and said they were off to a party as they just bumped into a friend of his, so off they went leaving me on my tod, about 3 hours later my sister came in only to grab some more wine and then came back about 3 hours more later, i said when she got in if i knew i was gonna be here on my own all evening i'd stayed at home, her face looked bemused, i was not a happy chap and left the next day and my thoughts of her lessend
i confronted her on this the other day which was hard as we both find confrontation hard, but i had to air things and after we continued to talk and chill like normal, i would like to add she has been on the chems a fair bit recently and ive noticed changes, but not really for the good, very swingy moods and general arrogant behaviour
she has also recently moved back home with my mum and tbh has not been treating her with much respect or taking care of her daughter when she has her, staying in bed the whole day after being out all night on the piss leaving my mum to look after her.
the main feud she posted some pics yesterday on facebook, a site i am beginning to loath due to its openness and sad goings on. i posted a commented saying they look good, but shortly after played with them in photoshops liquify tool fora laugh, i was laughing at them and thought she'd do the same, a few hours later i received what was to be some shocking messages and status updates
" FUCKING FAMILY WHAT A LOAD OF SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
that's a joke i thought, look at what she did to me at xmas and did i post for all the world to see, nope, although i did post i had the worst xmas ever,
"Ive never been so insolted (upset) in all my life! but hey there's always payback!"
***** are you ok?
she replied "well my brother put the most fucked up face warp on my new pics and i am clearly not impressed. still upset about it as i am already self concious i dont need any1 makin me look any worse "
they were similar to the mirrors in a funhouse, if i want to offend i could have done some really dark stuff to them,
msg "you think that's fucking funny u spoilt little shit! u fuckin wait! "
now she has never made aware to me she was self conscious and if i knew how she was going to react of course i wouldn't of posted them, she has removed me as a fried on there and when i phoned earlier she did not wasn't to speak to me and was told she got in drunk saw them and started crying, i felt a little bad but think she has over reacted to say the least, but the way she has been lately i feel i dont know her anymore and she can just go here own way, but its not what i want if im being honest but she is giving me no reason to love her as a sister at all
thanks if you read it all, bit of a essay but i needed to get it out and see what people think
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