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So yeah, talking about schizophrenia
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Been schizo for about 3 years now and I have a good graps on  reality and can openly talk about my experiences. So this chick I know met up with me last night and was totally diggin the crazy thing, shes going some kinda course for school about mental illness and she told me I should speek publicly about schizoprenia. I was like... Meh... I donno, then she was like "you would get paid" then I was like...



Talking about my experience would be intense, but im considering it.

what do you think>?


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: LuNaTiX]
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i'd love to hear about what its like, especially if you're pretty good at describing things.

when you feel the crazy come on, do you realize the crazy has come on?


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: truekimbo2]
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the first time I went nuts I didn't feel weird or crazy at all, everything that happened felt so natural and right. It's not like with breaking an arm, you know damn well because of pain sensors that theres something wrong, but when its your brain thats broken, you really can't sense anything out of place because the brain is who you are, it controls your reality, so if your reality is broken, what do you have to compair it with at the time? Hard to explain.

but since I became medicated im a little more aware of my actions, if I get any racing thoughts or weird ideas or some kind of mental symbolism I take an extra 5 mg of my anti psychotic medication.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: LuNaTiX]
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If you're up to speaking about, I say do it. It's mo money in your pocket.

Have you ever had a daylight hallucination (e.g. Jesus or Satan standing in front of you)?

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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: vigilant_mind]
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unfortunetly I never seen much nore heard the voices except that one time I heard "satan made me do it" and then right after that "We await your command"

but I did have a pot seed grow inside my hands, felt kinda real too.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: LuNaTiX]
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Could you carry on a conversation with the voices, or was it mostly one-sided?

Did you experience any delusions?


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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i've never been diagnosed but i'm considering seeking help.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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What symptoms do you experience that make you want to seek help?


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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i don't consider them symptoms since i'm not a doctor. i think they are delusions.

like lunatix said about the broken brain thing... that's basically it. some days i am better, some days i feel like a different person. as in a different personality. that personality is currently hunting down Mother/Father Words on some metalevel in the collective unconsciousness and is doing rites to summon them into himself. he also believes that his mind transcended time & space some time in the future and has sent me messages from the future.

it's hard to explain but the future me, the one i become, sends clues and hints and hidden meanings to the past me. this is all a part of a scheme going back to the evolution of man.

then there are agents of satan trying to help me & some entities trying to stop me achieving this. it isn't "satan" but people on earth have called this entity satan. it appeared to me in my dreams as a gravitation well/black hole in the middle of cosmic quantum chaos. it said "you are the gate, you are the key, you are the one who passes through the gate". it showed me powers i could never imagine, that will be mine if i become his portal to this world.

then there's a feeling that sometimes becomes unbearable that i am writing myself on some metalevel from the future and everything i do is scripted. sometimes i feel like i'm stuck in a fog and i go on autopilot, acting "Normal" to everyone else but that's only because i'm forced to act like i write myself. some days i get out from the spell and start to test out if i'm really being written into existence or no.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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What happens if you accept Satan's offer and become his portal to the world?


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: LuNaTiX]
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I think that it would be helpful to understanding the illness if you speak about it. I mean if you feel comfortable with speaking about it then I dont see why you wouldn't. Especially if there's the benefit of money in ur pocket. I say do it.

I like how u explained the brain being broken. So what exactly happens if u dont take the medicine or before u started taking it what would u do? Like would you do things and not remember doin them or what exactly is it? I dont know alot about it at all.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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The Cypher said:
What happens if you accept Satan's offer and become his portal to the world?


idk. i'm thinking i'm not really schizo if i don't know. i've seen some full blown cases that can explain everything. to them it makes sense and for them all the pieces come together and they can't understand how others don't get it, that's delusion.

i do think i'm seeing multiple options or can sense them vibrating to me from the future. one is that if that force gets its way i gain immense and unseen powers to manipulate physical force and beings, like being able to use telekinesis and create vacuum's with my mind and also pressure, i saw him demonstrating this in a dream. i was in a church tower and i visualized an invisible sphere around the church bell which then started to "implode" or push toward the center atom. idk how to explain it but that bell was crushed together to the size of a tennis ball, the force that was used was terrific and it made my hair stand up on my head.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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I routinely get an entity (presumably the manifestation of my subconscious) telling me things and showing me how to do things in dreams or through subtle hints during waking life.

I've found that listening to this voice can lead to great things.  Maybe do the same with yours?  What do you have to lose?  (Besides your sanity, of course... :tongue:)


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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been skitzophrenic for 8 years now
never went the conventional medication route
i self medicate however
it certainly doesnt help
especialy when trying to detox again
intensifies the episodes like woah!
however......i feel cursed and blessed at the same time with it all
i feel u on the satan trying to help you thing
theres a lyric in an aesop rock song.....none shall pass....well its a whisper actualy
but the person is like, im not trying to hurt you...im trying to help
i dont know.....something i can relate to
i dont hear voices that arent there.  however the things that are audible in my surroundings come together to have realy wierd meanings
like....there will be a converstaion going on on one side of the room and people will be saying things like, yea i know, he just sits there and acts like we cant hear him hearing us.....and ill be like wtf...and then a totaly different conversation somewhere else down the street or across the room will pick up where they left off and be like, yea when is he gona figure it out already
ive called em out before but of course people just look at me like im crazy
hard to explain  and right now my thoughts are jumbled
there are times i can realy articulate what it is i expereince
however...right now im a puddle of blah
but id like to get back to it sometime as im sure we can all learn from each other on the subject


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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I'll reply to these messages when I go to work in like 15 minutes. Sorry for the delay.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: DeadPhan]
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kinda cool video about skitzo
im sure alot of us have had this experience of tv and radio talking directly to them?  just me? 


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: deCypher]
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The Cypher said:
I routinely get an entity (presumably the manifestation of my subconscious) telling me things and showing me how to do things in dreams or through subtle hints during waking life.

I've found that listening to this voice can lead to great things.  Maybe do the same with yours?  What do you have to lose?  (Besides your sanity, of course... :tongue:)


true. i have been following it's advice, however strange it may be.


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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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There is nothing wrong with communicating to entities from Beyond.  They can be extremely helpful beings.  Everything you see is a communication device.

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Re: So yeah, talking about schizophrenia [Re: Bridgeburner]
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:lol:


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