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ShattrdHarlequin
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My brain hurts
#5269276 - 02/06/06 12:28 PM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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I had quite a dissapointing weekend. Lets start Thursday. I called a girl and attempted to make plans for the weekend. I offered to take her to a freak show I was kind of obligated to attend. She sound very excited to talk to me and said she would call me back Friday. She offered me some yoga advice and said we would talk soon.
Friday rolls around and I never recieve a call. I end up doing nothing all Friday night except some homework and passing out around 10. I convinced myself that something had come up and she would call me Saturday.
Saturday came and I decided it was a good idea to invite some friends over for dinner - make sure everyone was well fed for their Saturday evening adventures. I invited 10 folks and of the 10 only 4 showed up. 2 of which are co-workers and the other 2 - my best friend and a long time friend who had nothing else to do. Thankfully my best friend showed up and came with me to the freak show. Afterwards I decided it was too early to end my Saturday night and went to Cervante's to catch the last set which including Railroad Earth and Billy Nershi of String Cheese Incident. This was certainly the highlight of my evening as they played my favorite Cheese song "Jellyfish" which I've never gotten to see performed live. It wasn't exactly Cheese but still owned. I half-expected the girl to be there as this is what she told me her plan for Saturday evening was, but I never saw her there. Saturday evening came to a close... it was alright, saw some good friends and kept my mind free of the clutter that was plagueing it.
Sunday..... a different story. My best friend woke up around 12 and headed off to sign a lease on his new apartment before the superbowl so I was left alone all day. I spent the entire day doing some homework I had procrastinated on a little too long. Between the time that I spent doing the homework(which ended up being about 6 hours) I had plenty of free time to let absurd thoughts plague my mind. I pretty much kept them in check.
Today.... I'm feeling very down on myself. I thought things were going well with this girl, I really enjoy her but she totally dissed me.... My friends won't even come hang with me when I make a delicious meal.... I haven't felt this down on myself in a bit.... I've been having problems refraining the tears from welling up in my eyes... I don't really expect anything from my fellow shroomers here.... just happy to have a place to vent...
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blueferret
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Being loanly sucks. I often feal this way, but you need to remember people have there own lives and lots of other things going on in them. I hardly ever get calls from friends or them randomly getting ahold of me to hang out. Then again I dont get ahold of them enough to do such things, and often when they try to get ahold of me I miss them or am buisy.
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MasonsChild
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Re: My brain hurts [Re: blueferret]
#5272168 - 02/07/06 01:22 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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blueferret said: Being loanly sucks. I often feal this way, but you need to remember people have there own lives and lots of other things going on in them. I hardly ever get calls from friends or them randomly getting ahold of me to hang out. Then again I dont get ahold of them enough to do such things, and often when they try to get ahold of me I miss them or am buisy.
Yup, I know what you mean. I keep thinking about girls all the time now that I am single again too. The thing is don't worry about the ones you already know, go out and meet some you don't, and you would be surprized. It's way easier said than done, of course. I just hooked up with a little hottie last night that I just met recently. I've been thinking about her way too much, have been for 3 weeks. Lastnight we made out 4 a few hours, and I ran into her today, all I can think about. I do know better, but emotions get heavy, and hot little youngin's from out of town stick in your mind. Lifes short, have fun and meet as many people as possible.
"And someday somewhere, somethings get hit by lightning. And somethings just don't, hope you live long and lucky."
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gregorio
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ShattrdHarlequin said:
Friday rolls around and I never recieve a call. I end up doing nothing all Friday night except some homework and passing out around 10.
You didn't get her number?
But then again, can you blame her?
You would have been passed out by 10 anyway, a real nice romantic night you had in store huh?
Give her a call.
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JacquesCousteau
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ShattrdHarlequin said: I've been having problems refraining the tears from welling up in my eyes...
The fact that you're trying to refrain those tears is the reason you still feel bad. Let yourself cry. Even for five minutes, just let go of the suppression and CRY. If you're alone, there's nothing to be embarassed about. (We shouldn't be embarassed to cry in front of others either, but I know that is a lot more of a challenge.)
If you do this, you will feel better.
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gregorio
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Crying and Praying; activities best done in complete privacy,
Maybe it the same thing
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: My brain hurts [Re: gregorio]
#5272374 - 02/07/06 06:17 AM (17 years, 11 months ago) |
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gregorio said: Crying and Praying; activities best done in complete privacy,
Maybe it the same thing
In a way, it is. Crying is a release, mentally... it's letting go mentally and letting your emotional energy dictate your actions.
Praying is a way of doing the same... it is a "giving up" of praise, which is "exchanged" for the peace of mind that results from the very action.
Meditation is another form of this same kind of release of the mind.
Releasing any kind of bodily pressure (vomitting comes to mind as the most prominent example, but also #'s 1 and 2 and passing gas...) can also be a form of sacrificing one's mental vigilance and allowing the physical body to "do as it will." if only for a moment.
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ShattrdHarlequin
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Thanks for all the advice everyone.... I am feeling much better today.... spent a lot of time with myself last night doing some yoga and meditation.... Came to the realization that I can't take it personally.... I've hung out with this girl the last 2 weekends prior to this one..... can't expect every weekend... Not to mention the fact that not everyone may be excited about a freak show as I was... haha... I'll give her a call later on this week and invite her to a nice evening of electronic sounds with Lotus on Friday.... thats more up her alley I think Is it wrong to call her again if she didn't call me back last weekend? Or is not calling simply giving up on a potentially good situation?
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RandalFlagg
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Sometimes stuff like that happens. Some people gatherings are magical fun. Other times people don't show up and not much is going on. That's life.
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JacquesCousteau
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ShattrdHarlequin said: Or is not calling simply giving up on a potentially good situation?
Bingo.
Give it a shot, man. Nothing to lose, right? If she gives you the brush off again, try to keep in mind you're better off without (girl)friends who jerk you around. (no pun intended..)
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Silverwolf
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Sometimes though don't we have to ask the question why it is that so many of us feel this way ? Gender politics aside (if putting aside such a thing is possible) there are also; social, economic, political and religious issues which influence our lives both positively and negatively. If, as a community, we can deal with some of these here so much the better.
-------------------- "Odrade read the word silently and then aloud. "Arafel." She knew this word.Reverend Mothers of the tyrants time had impressed it into the Bene Gesserit consciousness,tracing it's roots to the most ancient sources. "Arafel:the cloud darkness at the end of the universe.""
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