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Divided_Sky
Ten ThousandThings

Registered: 11/02/03
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So much anxiety!
#4617223 - 09/03/05 07:02 PM (18 years, 5 months ago) |
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Ok don't laugh at this but for the last 4 days I've been planning to shroom but each day I change my mind and tell myself I'll do it tommorow. First I felt ill prepared, then the weather was bad, and now I just feel so exhausted from the anxiety I'm too tired to do them today. All over what is supposed to be about 2 grams (equivalent in cubes, it is psi cyansceans). It's like asking somebody on a date. Maybe because I plan on doing them alone, or who knows but it's hard to let go. (Let it be noted that I am pretty set on tripping in the day because I feel more relaxed)
I tell myself "The decision is already made. There is no point in conflict, you are doing it so don't worry." This works for a little while but the same old "should I/shouldn't "I thoughts come back. It's like my brain doesn't know the decision period is over.
I have the same thing with weed, I love it when I get high, but I don't do it often because I feel anxious about doing it beforehand.
I think today is the first day my excuse has actually been legit. Feeling unprepared (but not actually being) is much less worse than being worn down by the waiting and wanting to take a nap. Man, I hope I feel better tommorow.
Ok, I know I should just eat them, but seriously I need some tips to deal with the anxiety and get some reassurance that things will be as they should, just fine. I can't see any reason I would have a bad trip, I've tripped before (though not hard on shrooms) have a good set and setting but I'm just so nervous.
Maybe because my mind can't adequetly represent psychedlic experiences in sober though I'm listening to much to what OTHER people say. You know "Oh, man shrooms are so intense! IT's like weed times 100!"(I don't like getting super stoned) Tripping has never been that hard for me, but I think I'm influenced by this kind of talk anyway. If I had more experience I would feel more confident. My expectations (though I try not to have any) start getting shaped by experiences that are not my own. arghh.
-------------------- 1. "After an hour I wasn't feeling anything so I decided to take another..." 2. "We were feeling pretty good so we decided to smoke a few bowls..." 3. "I had to be real quiet because my parents were asleep upstairs..."
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TrippingDuality
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Registered: 07/14/05
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things will be as they should. you will be fine. i promise.
-------------------- turn off your mind relax and float downstream
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sublime40oz
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Registered: 09/24/04
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Just tell yourself, worst comes to worst you have the worst 5 hours of your life and then its over. You'll laugh about it in three days. More than likely however everything will go wonderfully and you will have the time of your life. If you go in with a positive outlook and you have a secure setting set out for yourself you can't help but have an amazing time. Kick your apprehension in the ass and get to it brother, only your insecurities about doing it will make you have a bad time.
-------------------- Beyond the gray sky
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Spanielmander
Stranger thanfiction

Registered: 08/14/05
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Loc: PA/NYC
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Echoed. Also, when you finally eat them, they're kickin, you're trippin, and you're smilin ear to ear, ask yourself why you were so apprehensive in the first place.
Seek the answer within the question! Whoa, man. Whoa.
-------------------- A man said to the universe: "Sir I exist!" "However," replied the universe, "The fact has not created in me A sense of obligation." ~Stephen Crane
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3six5
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Registered: 04/15/05
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_DON'T PANIC_ 
take a deep breath.. or two.. or three..
reeelaaax
ain't nothing wrong.. nothing is wrong.. everything is on track
and play some good psytrance music like shpongle
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