yoosername said:

Walking between worlds, for sure.  One of my friends likened it to the portal of truth.

“I go by many names.  I am the world, I am the universe, I am god, I am truth; I am all, I am one, and I am also… you!”

I want to try vaping DMT again, but my bark is 14 years old now.  I’ll try an extraction this summer and report back, but I’m not expecting to get much out of it.

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Arkyhog said:

Show off! That does look like an amazing place to live though. Had 3 does come in the backyard today. I have a deck 40 feet off the ground so its a natural deer stand. Didn't take one with my bow though because my wife's car is in the garage where I hang and skin my deer. The garage door is frozen to the ground with a 3 foot drift against it. Oh well, have 2 in the freezer and until end of February to take a couple more.

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Haha, yeah feels good showing off this time, because it is beautiful, but the truth is I took that picture from the roof, and why was I on the roof? Well we got 100cm of snow in 3 days and then the forcast told us we would get 3 days of rain If I didn't get up there and remove the snow, the roof might have collapsed in on the house. Half of the snow I can just dump in the yard, but the rest falls down in front of the house and compacts a lot, it's a pita to break up and then shoveling it away

So I'm glad y'all liked it because I'm pretty sick of snow already and we're getting another 60cm this coming weekend

Love the tall deck you've got there

RoscoeReturns said:

Damn that’s beautiful! My light isn’t great because I was at work all day, and it’s still coming down. Two feet and it’s not done yet.

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Yes it is, but yeah it's kind of a problem when it comes so much, so fast Two feet, that's about 61cm right, really beautiful around your place as well, how are you doing the driveway? Got a snow blower?

GenesisCorrupted said:

I heard it described as somebody being aware that they weren't experiencing emotions when they should be. Like they would be really mad but they can't. Like the ability to get mad is gone.

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RoscoeReturns said:

Kloakk said:

Oooohh we doing snow pics

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Damn that’s beautiful! My light isn’t great because I was at work all day, and it’s still coming down. Two feet and it’s not done yet.

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Mr Piggy said:

Kloakk, you ever use a couple of ropes and a board to pull snow off the roof?  Don’t have to get up there.

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No I have not, I don't think it would work because of the low pitch angle of my roof, and then there's the problem with one side of the house being 8 meters high, me being so short, I don't even know if I can throw a rope that high

Churpee Choozle said:

I've never used ssris, but seen them keep my mother upright when she was really a wreck. So I do see the use, and am thankful they exist. Never used antipsychotics in a regular dose / sense. But had them as sleeping aid on like 10% of normal prescription dose. Can confirm they really drained all emotions from me and turned me into a sheep. Perfect for the circumstances. (I couldn't sleep at all after a good friend killed himself. Try going weeks on end without sleep with young kids and a job, urg).

I wouldn't advertise this shit, but I cannot be really 'against' either. It's just not a solution to a problem, but a way of keeping the problem contained until it's time for real solutions.

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Kloakk said:

RoscoeReturns said:

Damn that’s beautiful! My light isn’t great because I was at work all day, and it’s still coming down. Two feet and it’s not done yet.

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Yes it is, but yeah it's kind of a problem when it comes so much, so fast Two feet, that's about 61cm right, really beautiful around your place as well, how are you doing the driveway? Got a snow blower?

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Yes big snow blower until we get our tractor. We usually yet one really big snow a year, 60-100cm, and enough smaller snows that I blow the drive a dozen or so times each Winter. It takes about two hours to complete. I’m getting too old for this shit.

Mr Piggy said:

RoscoeReturns said:

Damn that’s beautiful! My light isn’t great because I was at work all day, and it’s still coming down. Two feet and it’s not done yet.

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Bean or squash tunnels?  I do the same thing with cattle panels.

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Beans, cukes, tomatoes, cantaloupe, peas, and whatever else climbs them. For not having any cattle I buy a lot of cattle panels. I’m framing some with wood so they hold their shape and will use them as removable trellis for my determinate tomatoes this year.

Nokumana said:

Hey friends,

I really want to give you all the download about my ceremonies this past weekend, since so many of you have been supportive and curious. I just want you to know that there is some value, I believe, in keeping some of it to myself until I'm able to do some real processing and integration. So again, please forgive my silence while I am working through some stuff.

Suffice to say that it was a very beautiful weekend. Friday night and Saturday night ceremonies that ran from about 10:00 p.m. to 7:00 a.m. we drank two to three cups of medicine each night although on the second night instead of the third cup, the leader of the ceremony - an indigenous chief of the Yawanawa people in Brazil - decided that he would serve a sacred tobacco medicine called Hapéh instead of Ayahuasca. This medicine is crazy intense and really beautiful but not for the faint of heart.

At any rate the first night was moderately intense, the second night after the second cup of ayahuasca was overwhelmingly, infinitely, like nothing I have ever experienced before, intense. I don't want to get into too many specifics yet because I'm still trying to hold it close and process it.

My promise to you is that I will, if you are still interested, talk about it and let you know what it gave me once I've put some effort into doing the work on my own first.

Love you guys, love this community, and I'm not going anywhere. I'm just turtling for a little bit, letting my jars colonize, getting ready to run some substrate, and processing a very, very huge weekend of ceremony.

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I’m very happy (and admittedly a bit jealous) to hear you had such a beautiful ceremonies. I think it’s indeed very wise to first process it, integrate it and enjoy the after glow before trying to reduce it into words and try to explain to people who might have similar experiences but will never fully know the indescribable experiences you had. No pressure at all!