Fleabag Friend said:

From what I gather, and through my own self diagnosis, I've got it as well.
I've had it since I was a kid though, like real young, being four or five in my parents bed in the morning, I remember watching lines of multi color dots dance across the ceiling. I've got the visual snow and floaters as well, but with my deteriorating vision and the length of time I've had it, it doesn't bother me very much.
psychedelics definitely make it more poignant and noticeable, but it seems to return to base line and I've never really seen it get permanently worsened. I have noticed what seems like a sharpened horizontal line of those colors in my vision, which I don't know if I've just never paid attention too before or if its become easier to focus on rather than past it.
Fuck it, there's nothing I can do, and it makes life kind of interesting.

Interesting what you say about depersonalization though, I've been having some mental barriers I've been working through myself, and I wonder if my physical vision isn't having a greater deal of effect on it than I imagined. Thanks for the consideration, never thought of it

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I didnt have visual snow until my first trip in 2012, when i took morning glory seeds (which gave me a body load so intense I still wonder if they actually damaged my eyes. my legs were completely like pins and needles, extremely uncomfortable. It felt like my blood wasnt flowing correctly)

Anyway, mine is drug induced. So, I dont know if my experience would be different but.



It seems to be fueled by anxiety. I thought I was going blind in one eye the other day. My anxiety had been at a very low level for awhile. As a result i havent noticed visual snow.

But the other day i thought i was going blind. The harder i focused my left eye, the worse it seemed my vision was. I was looking WAY into my peripheral vision, and the part that cut off seemed too close on both sides. This sent my anxiety into overdrive.

The harder i looked, the more i panicked, and the worse my visual snow got. (Strangely, I only have bad visual snow in one eye.) It got so bad I almost couldnt see. It was like my left eye was "forgetting" what i was looking at, placing a layer of visual snow over it, and my right eye was taking over. Very odd and scary. i felt like this for 2 days, and came to the conclusion I must have hemianopsia induced by a brain tumor pressing on my visual processing thing or optic nerve

Anyway, I remembered about HPPD, looked into visual snow and what do you know. The pictures very vividly explain my "blindness". As I chilled out my vision magically returned to my left eye. Turns out it was never gone, i was just fixating on the snow and it was getting worse as a result. Weird shit.

Its always there, but will mostly go away during the day if i dont fixate on it.

If I do it gets much worse.

LogicaL Chaos said:

How often do u take psychedelics? Do u smoke a lot of weed? Are u sensitive to drugs in general?

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xbloodwhipx said:

Let me give you an example

Lets say i have 15 minutes to burn between classes.

and i decide to take a walk.

I start walking in one direction and decide to not take a walk.

So I turn around mid walk and go back to the building where I have 2 classes in a row in.

i will feel like someone watched me walk for no reason and turn around. They will find this suspicious and think im up to something.

If im out in my yard i feel like my neighhbors are watching.

For example id never smoke a joint in a relatively secluded part of my yard because my neighbors can see this part of my yard through one window on the side of their house (that is probably a bathroom window anyway).

Theres literally no way anyone would know its a joint and not a cigarette from that distance even if they were looking.

Same with driving. I feel like im being watched and as a result never detour off of my path.

Its the weirdest shit and i wish it would stop. I smoke a lot of weed, could that be the cause?

I feel paranoid like that in way more situations but those are just some examples.

The other week i thought my friend may have poisoned my drink lmfao

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stop smoking weed man! it's not doing you any good

HurricaneBreeze said:

xbloodwhipx said:

Let me give you an example

Lets say i have 15 minutes to burn between classes.

and i decide to take a walk.

I start walking in one direction and decide to not take a walk.

So I turn around mid walk and go back to the building where I have 2 classes in a row in.

i will feel like someone watched me walk for no reason and turn around. They will find this suspicious and think im up to something.

If im out in my yard i feel like my neighhbors are watching.

For example id never smoke a joint in a relatively secluded part of my yard because my neighbors can see this part of my yard through one window on the side of their house (that is probably a bathroom window anyway).

Theres literally no way anyone would know its a joint and not a cigarette from that distance even if they were looking.

Same with driving. I feel like im being watched and as a result never detour off of my path.

Its the weirdest shit and i wish it would stop. I smoke a lot of weed, could that be the cause?

I feel paranoid like that in way more situations but those are just some examples.

The other week i thought my friend may have poisoned my drink lmfao

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stop smoking weed man! it's not doing you any good

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