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Fuck your lack of sleepless nights, your lack of anxiety, your lack of unhappiness.
Fuck your undeserved success.
Fuck your justified content.
Fuck your stability.
Fuck you and your reason to live.
Fuck the imbalance of society.
Fuck the unimportance of solid intellect.
Fuck everything, until the corruption makes my misery happiness in comparison.

I wish for a comforted heart and an icy hand rips it from my chest.
And yet, do I even deserve that?
How far does my worthlessness extend?
Is my misery only a perk of being a miserable failure?
Why must everything be out of reach?
Why am I forced to play a wicked game of cards, where I am dealt nothing but bad hands?
I want out of it, so
Push me off this wet cliff of desolation and I will fall:
What?s left to hold on to?
Many would say love. But what love have I ever had?
Only bitter sympathy. Only cold remarks.
At the most, poorly acted synthetic emotion.

Keep it to yourself, for I now must descend.

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I want to conform.
I want to smile.
I want to raise my chin and declare,

?The storm has passed,
The drought is gone,
And I am here and I am sound.?

Though my bones have grown hollow from years of such empty feeling
At times like this, I can feel them fill with my own superiority.
At times like this, I stand with full posture and stiff expression.
I stretch and, for a while, open my eyes with divine satisfaction and say:

I have no qualms about sprouting my wings to elevate myself far above you.
Despite those destitute years of misery and corruption
And despite the 10-ton burdens I drag behind me
I will climb, and I will mount myself atop the steepest plateau in this damned city,
And with great pride I will divide this dark cloudy sky with an everlasting will to live.

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the median of life and death.
a car without keys.
a plug that won't reach.
a door frozen shut.
a cave without walls.
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whatever compelled me to cross that line
has left me alone again and behind
red pupils of an unnatural kind
they hold my heart, break it, and leave me as blind.

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a window breaks, but you cant hear it.
a fire burns, but you cant feel it.
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how did you find yourself here?
my own vast darkness,
a life without boundries?
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unlocked another whisper. undream.
neutral unreality.
i thought i had warned you...
unlock another dream.
tear it at the seams, i...
didn't i warn you?

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she hangs on the sun
to see the world.
where did you go?
where did life go?
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there she is now.
that's my child, yes!
there's my star
with knife in heart.
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blood on the floor
a lifestamp of reasoning.
unwashable reckoning.

now, a chaulk outline...
a marker of grieving
made sidewalks amazing.

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maltemptation and bad luck comfort
in rearrangements of no kind or sort
that we're exposed to until our rebirth
and we are called to protect the earth
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maybe youd like it if you'd listen to what i say.
maybe youd like it, but i can't find another way.
maybe youd like it if your life was ending today.
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DON'T MAKE ME WAIT FOR IT.
I'D RATHER DIE THAN SAY GOODBYE.

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hands clutch her neck.
a love laid to waste, or
an anchor unhitched, or
a fire put out, or
a love that is missed.
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my teeth clench and wings flex.
an emotion that allows no seams.
wounds iron out and stance retracts.
joints extend and nails dig in.
flesh conforms to inevitable transformations.

watch me as i change.

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when i close my eyes, i can feel it:
the buildings shaking.
my last limb breaking.
a crimson shadow towering over my once-recognizable body.

i've lost it all:
the strings that bind me together.
the heart i'd held to forever.
the infinity of words, actions, and feelings i'd never displayed.

leave me the fuck alone.
weld my door shut.
board up my windows.
destroy the light.
tie me down.
cross me out.
leave me to fucking die.

they don't care for me now.
maybe they never cared to begin with.

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