The update is that I'm making a conscious effort to trust her there is an outside chance the condom was there from before. I have thought hard about this(obviously) and am not making up excuses. We did buy one if those trojan vibrator ring things a long time ago (they come with a condom)and i am the type to think, "why throw out a good condom" i probably could have planned to save it for something. I dont know. I have a lot of projects and a bad memory. But... i kind of remember that night her saying" you wont be needing this" and throwing it away... fuck man i dont know, but thats the whole point...I DONT KNOW FOR SURE. I cant change the entire course of my life based on fuzzy memories and an old(ish) condom. I know i look stupid, and i feel stupid. But im just not sure. Im in st augustine right now for work and she has had all week to fuck up...maybe other clues will pop up, maybe not...but i cant live my life in fear and insecurity: especially if she didnt do anything. That just would nt be fair to her.
Edited by Anonymous (05/01/14 04:54 PM)
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