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Mystical_Craven
mentally illpsychonaught
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too intense to define (a poem - by me)
#1884140 - 09/05/03 06:46 AM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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Another boring fuckin night sitting all alone. Another night goes drifting by without you on the phone. Another moment overlooked because your selfishness. You fail to satisy my needs...and now I'm getting pissed. How often am I there for you, with nothing in return? Always sayin I'll be there for you...when will I ever learn? It seems you only use me when life has got you down. And I always come a runnin - all you gotta do is frown. But how much more will I give out, without you giving back? How much pain can one heart take before it starts to crack? I feel I'm quickly closing 'pon the point of no return. All I need is one more reason...one more little burn. Cause I'm tired of falling victim of your crazy voodoo spell. I wish you'd just fuckin die and burn and rot in hell. And don't you dare look at me like that - you know that you deserve it. All you do is torture me, and still I think you're worth it. I've always thought you'd come through some day, You'd just grow up and finally say The things that I've longed to hear for years The only words that can stop these tears. And yet, somehow I can already see That these things I wish are fantasy. You'll never see me the same way I see you. You'll never let my dreams come true. And even worse: you'll never set me free. Cause you've made it clear that you need me. You need me to be there when you're feeling blue. You need a shoulder to cry on...someone to comfort you. You need me for all the things your man won't provide, And because I can't stand to say "no" I always abide. And when I sit and I listen to all your woeful cries, I can't help but see the thanks in your eyes. And then I think to myself: "some day she'll see" "Someday she'll realise just what she's got in me" And then, soon enough, the moment fades clean away. And again, once again, you push me away. That's when I slip away, back out of your sight. And prepare once again for one more lonely night. Another night sitting here thinking about you, And whether or not it'll ever be through. Sometimes I can't tell what it is that I feel. Is it love? Is it hate? ..... It's all so surreal. I can't tell anymore if you're even a friend. Most days it don't matter...I just want it to end. I want you to leave. I wanna break free from your spell. All that you do is just put me through hell. But, oh what a hell...what a painful bliss! You touch like none other...I just can't resist. You cause me such anguish...yet, also such glee. Like a tsunami of emotions crashing on me. And although I know not how you effect, My time spend with you I just can't regret. And wether we wind up together, or are forever apart. I know, deep inside, you'll always stay in my heart.
-------------------- "Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go..." T.S. Eliot
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ekomstop
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Re: too intense to define (a poem - by me) [Re: Mystical_Craven]
#1884619 - 09/05/03 09:30 AM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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Whoa..I don't know what to say. Intense? Yeah.
That ending was pretty unexpected.
Regardless of the nature of it, I thought it was pretty well written.
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soochi
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Re: too intense to define (a poem - by me) [Re: Mystical_Craven]
#1884663 - 09/05/03 09:46 AM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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That poem so accurately describes the relationship I (once) had with the girl in my avatar.
-------------------- Wee, sleeket, cowran, tim'rous beastie, O, what panic's in thy breastie! Thou need na start awa sae hasty, Wi' bickering brattle!
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Murex
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Re: too intense to define (a poem - by me) [Re: Mystical_Craven]
#1884903 - 09/05/03 11:06 AM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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Great poem.
My advise is to end it now before it's too late.
-------------------- What if everything around you Isn't quite as it seems? What if all the world you think you know, Is an elaborate dream? And if you look at your reflection, Is it all you want it to be?
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Mystical_Craven
mentally illpsychonaught
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Re: too intense to define (a poem - by me) [Re: Murex]
#1885375 - 09/05/03 01:12 PM (20 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
My advise is to end it now before it's too late.
lol...yeah, I've been trying to for almost four years now...it truly is the ultimate love/hate relationship. Let's put it this way - I didn't even believe in soulmates or love-at-first-site until I met this girl...and I've been absolutely insane about her ever since. Everything was absolutely perfect in the beginning (and I mean perfect in the way that Tom Hanks & Meg Ryan could only dream of portraying) and then we started going out, and two weeks into it it became so unbelievibly intense she decided to sabotage the relationship (by sleeping with my best friend) which, of course, crushed the hell out of me in ways that I can't even begin to describe. But after a little while I couldn't stand not being around her anymore, and I left the past in the past and moved on to the future. Almost instantly it became super passinate again, and it was like every cell in my body wanted to explode or something...so I ran. And we've been going back and forth like this for over three and a half years now. We both want nothing more then to just be with eachother, but whatever it is that we have is just so damn powerful neither one of us can hardly stand any more then tiny little amounts at a time. So we patch things up, experience the rush, and then stab eachother in the backs to thrawrt off the other. Then, naturally, we hate eachothers' guts for a little while, and when the fire finally starts to die down our anger turns to emptiness and suddenly we're both compelled to get our fix again. It's a sick sad game I tell ya.
-------------------- "Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go..." T.S. Eliot
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