Anonymous said:

Is half a gram even a guarantee goodbye? I don't know much about heroin, I can get it though

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Anonymous said:

Painless and Peacefully (if I actually die and don't come back that is...)

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Anonymous said:

I'm not trying to seek someone to talk to about my thoughts. I'm not trying to sound all poor me about this. I'm just simply here because this is where I spend majority of my time in life anyway.

My girlfriend and I have always been very suicidal. I am not scared to die and I am ready whenever it happens. I have had thoughts about it since as young as I could remember. I have never been a very happy person EVER. I have never accomplished anything in my life and I have never done anything good to help myself do that. I am now almost 21 years old and I have nothing but to live in this basement which I call "home".

I don't see a reason to even try in life. I don't get happiness out of anything and I never have. The only time I am truly happy is when I am high and able to think about myself and forget about everything else. I don't see a reason to try and work my whole life for nothing. You live life to die. There is no big reward I will get at the end of trying to make something for myself. Oh but I might be happy in general with myself and what I accomplished you think? I HIGHLY doubt that. I have NEVER been happy with anything. I guess I was just born a negative piece of shit.


I've pretty much decided that when the time is right, or whenever I get down enough to actually do it. I will just get a gram of heroin and snort it to the dome. Maybe half a gram, I have not decided yet. I know I could do this together with my girlfriend because she always talks about it to. That is the way she would want to die. She used to be a heroin addict and knows how it goes. She has OD'd plenty of times and she was so fucked up that she had no idea that was even what happened. Now me, I have never done heroin and I would never shoot it up. So I decided what better way to go?



Painless and Peacefully (if I actually die and don't come back that is...)

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Anonymous said:

Anonymous said:

I'm not trying to seek someone to talk to about my thoughts. I'm not trying to sound all poor me about this. I'm just simply here because this is where I spend majority of my time in life anyway.

My girlfriend and I have always been very suicidal. I am not scared to die and I am ready whenever it happens. I have had thoughts about it since as young as I could remember. I have never been a very happy person EVER. I have never accomplished anything in my life and I have never done anything good to help myself do that. I am now almost 21 years old and I have nothing but to live in this basement which I call "home".

I don't see a reason to even try in life. I don't get happiness out of anything and I never have. The only time I am truly happy is when I am high and able to think about myself and forget about everything else. I don't see a reason to try and work my whole life for nothing. You live life to die. There is no big reward I will get at the end of trying to make something for myself. Oh but I might be happy in general with myself and what I accomplished you think? I HIGHLY doubt that. I have NEVER been happy with anything. I guess I was just born a negative piece of shit.


I've pretty much decided that when the time is right, or whenever I get down enough to actually do it. I will just get a gram of heroin and snort it to the dome. Maybe half a gram, I have not decided yet. I know I could do this together with my girlfriend because she always talks about it to. That is the way she would want to die. She used to be a heroin addict and knows how it goes. She has OD'd plenty of times and she was so fucked up that she had no idea that was even what happened. Now me, I have never done heroin and I would never shoot it up. So I decided what better way to go?



Painless and Peacefully (if I actually die and don't come back that is...)

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First off you have made it to 21 dealing with depression. Shit seems hopeless when you are 21 but it gets better.

There is nothing wrong with living in the basement, some off us prefer dark gloomy places. I wish i had a nice cool basement to live in.

On the only time you get time to yourself is when your high. What kind of drugs have you been using lately? Whats your drug history? What age did you start using drugs?

If shit went on in your childhood let it out no one is here to judge and you will be amazed at what people have been through and the advice they can give.


"I don't see a reason to try and work my whole life for nothing. You live life to die. There is no big reward I will get at the end of trying to make something for myself."

Belive me i feel you 100% on this. I watched my mother work her ass off and she has nothing, Im living with her so she can afford to live in a house and not some shoebox senior housing unit.

We all are living to die and i used to look at life that way. "might as well get it over now" mentality. The flaw in this thinking is that the some how the universe granted you this sense of self awareness. The ability to feel emotions and some of those emotions include suffering.

We are all going to suffer and we will not escape it until we come to a full understanding that suffering is only in our mind.

I would love to hear why you have so much pain and suffering going on right now.

Stop looking at life as "trying to make something for yourself" and try looking at life as something you posses. A gift that was given to you by the cosmos. You posses this life and can do anything you want with it. You dont need to spend your life trying to posses material possessions. Happiness doesn't come from a car or house. Happiness comes from a true understanding and appreciation of how precious we truly are.

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moonrockmushy said:

Anonymous said:

Is half a gram even a guarantee goodbye? I don't know much about heroin, I can get it though

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Uhh, no.  Maybe if it were pure but I can assure you it isn't.  Its actually quite hard to overdose on an opiate alone.  It is not like falling off to a nice euphoric sleep like has been said.  I've heard it feels like drowning and is terrifying.  Haven't you ever taken too much at once?  That shit feel good?  Loss of muscle control, shitty hicups, headache, choking on vomit, doesn't sound like that much fun to me.

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daz01 said:

you sound extremely closeminded OP. i dont have any idea what youve went through, if anything or you just naturally have that "i give up before trying mentality."

how the hell do you know what happens after we die? what if this life is some sort of test, affecting what we go onto next? a world, reality, that us simplistic humans can never comprehend? what if you commit suicide because you could not "be arsed" at living life and youre "soul" is punished. you might look back on your human life and go "oh, shit, it isnt all that bad.".

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Anonymous said:

moonrockmushy said:

Anonymous said:

Is half a gram even a guarantee goodbye? I don't know much about heroin, I can get it though

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Uhh, no.  Maybe if it were pure but I can assure you it isn't.  Its actually quite hard to overdose on an opiate alone.  It is not like falling off to a nice euphoric sleep like has been said.  I've heard it feels like drowning and is terrifying.  Haven't you ever taken too much at once?  That shit feel good?  Loss of muscle control, shitty hicups, headache, choking on vomit, doesn't sound like that much fun to me.

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Indeed.  Opiates aren't good suicide drugs.

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Rail_Gun said:

Anonymous said:

moonrockmushy said:

Anonymous said:

Is half a gram even a guarantee goodbye? I don't know much about heroin, I can get it though

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Uhh, no.  Maybe if it were pure but I can assure you it isn't.  Its actually quite hard to overdose on an opiate alone.  It is not like falling off to a nice euphoric sleep like has been said.  I've heard it feels like drowning and is terrifying.  Haven't you ever taken too much at once?  That shit feel good?  Loss of muscle control, shitty hicups, headache, choking on vomit, doesn't sound like that much fun to me.

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Indeed.  Opiates aren't good suicide drugs.

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Suicidal pharmacists typically use opiates. Suicidal chemists typically use cyanide. They're equally as lethal if you don't under medicate. Just a few months ago a local pharmacist took a bunch of fentanyl patches and stuck them all over his body. He died quickly.

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