ZippoZ said:

Thats about the worse thing I have heard a person say in.... months?

I was right, I have dated a girl just like you... and it was one of the single worse experiences of my life. It actually pushed me to a very dark place... being deceived and lied to by someone I thought I loved......

I mean, i do appreciate being able to understand your point of view, which you are very open and up front about here. and to some extent it does help me deal with some of my own past issues and relationships knowing that, in fact, there are people out there who's sole intention is to lie and deceive their significant other to their own ends...


But on a personal level... I really think that what you do , despite being fueled by addiction, just makes you.... a horrible person.

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There's so many great aspects to me that are going to be overlooked and tossed aside if my lover knows about my seedy past. I don't want to be labeled as some sex-fiend junkie, when my persona has much more depth to it than that. They don't need to be constantly reminded of my past and having trust issues each time they look at me.

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Crystal G said:

There's so many great aspects to me that are going to be overlooked and tossed aside if my lover knows about my seedy past. I don't want to be labeled as some sex-fiend junkie, when my persona has much more depth to it than that. They don't need to be constantly reminded of my past and having trust issues each time they look at me.

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So how do you think the trust issue will pan out if your future husband finds out about the drug stuff? Or do you seriously think you'll be able to keep it a secret forever? Because theoretically you could, but statistically, you couldn't

Crystal G said:

I don't do it to intentionally manipulate the other person. I just want the other person to see me for who I am and give them a genuine chance to know the "real" me; sans lifestyle choices.

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you trip me out. i'm sorry but you do do it intentionally. you're pretending to be something you aren't whose still into humane interests and sex. and it does manipulate people. your lifestyle is a REALLY big part of who you are. and it seems like you really won't let anyone see the real you. you're hiding and you're never going to get close to anyone like that.

but you are such a free bird and i respect and admire that. just don't go getting married because you can and lie to your spouse. that part just rubs me the wrong way. that's not a relationship.

you're going to eventually settle down... maybe. and you'll be changed when you do. then you won't give a fuck about truly opening up.

Crystal G said:

ZippoZ said:

Thats about the worse thing I have heard a person say in.... months?

I was right, I have dated a girl just like you... and it was one of the single worse experiences of my life. It actually pushed me to a very dark place... being deceived and lied to by someone I thought I loved......

I mean, i do appreciate being able to understand your point of view, which you are very open and up front about here. and to some extent it does help me deal with some of my own past issues and relationships knowing that, in fact, there are people out there who's sole intention is to lie and deceive their significant other to their own ends...


But on a personal level... I really think that what you do , despite being fueled by addiction, just makes you.... a horrible person.

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I don't do it to intentionally manipulate the other person. I just want the other person to see me for who I am and give them a genuine chance to know the "real" me; sans lifestyle choices. There's so many great aspects to me that are going to be overlooked and tossed aside if my lover knows about my seedy past. I don't want to be labeled as some sex-fiend junkie, when my persona has much more depth to it than that. They don't need to be constantly reminded of my past and having trust issues each time they look at me.

And yes, I too have dated drug users, just like you, and they were all the worst experiences of my life. That's why I have vowed to stay the hell away from them.

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ZippoZ said:

Thats about the worse thing I have heard a person say in.... months?

I was right, I have dated a girl just like you... and it was one of the single worse experiences of my life. It actually pushed me to a very dark place... being deceived and lied to by someone I thought I loved......

I mean, i do appreciate being able to understand your point of view, which you are very open and up front about here. and to some extent it does help me deal with some of my own past issues and relationships knowing that, in fact, there are people out there who's sole intention is to lie and deceive their significant other to their own ends...


But on a personal level... I really think that what you do , despite being fueled by addiction, just makes you.... a horrible person.

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All We Perceive said:

While I enjoy your wild posts, I find it to be surprising that you found it puzzling that your bf wanted you to choose between him and stripping at a fully nude strip club.  I can't imagine too many guys being cool with that.  Good luck in your journey tho. 

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cherokee said:

you should find god or some shit

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Crystal G said:

Just because I get my kicks engaging in wild sexual encounters doesn't make me a bad person. I'm also a philanthropist at heart. Last year I dedicated my time volunteering for a nonprofit division of the LAPD, teaching English, math, and history to underprivileged kids who were at-risk of joining gangs and getting into drugs (yea yea the irony). I even made an effort to organize a toy drive for them last Christmas. I actually got to meet the chief of police of LA and the ambassador of Mexico at the banquet the LAPD held that year (which I have pictures of). I was doing all this while I was an IV drug user, and doing nude modeling.

I open doors for the elderly. If I see somebody drop money on the floor, I run after them and give it back. Hell, today I found a wallet on the bus and I simply returned it to the bus driver without even opening it to check for bills inside. Why the hell would I need to find god? I'm a hell of a lot more moral than a lot of the other self-proclaimed "Christians" out there.

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marry me!

i have a vacation home sitting on 45 acres in washington state... we could move there, grow weed and shrooms and ball our brains out everyday...

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Now, I have a super slutty story to share with you all. I didn't feel like waiting for the bus back home from work, so I ended up hitchhiking. Some Mexican guy who couldn't speak any English came and picked me up... but he was young and really really cute!!! So we ended up making out within like 30 seconds of knowing each other, and we felt each other up. We exchanged numbers trying our best to communicate with his broken english, and then he dropped me off.

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Anonymous said:

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Now, I have a super slutty story to share with you all. I didn't feel like waiting for the bus back home from work, so I ended up hitchhiking. Some Mexican guy who couldn't speak any English came and picked me up... but he was young and really really cute!!! So we ended up making out within like 30 seconds of knowing each other, and we felt each other up. We exchanged numbers trying our best to communicate with his broken english, and then he dropped me off.

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lolz, that's not really that slutty.  maybe if you guys fucked...but that's straight "high school" slutty, and just big girl promiscuous

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