Crystal G said:

Fucking shit, dude. Fucking fucking shit. My entire world just fell apart and shit just up the very second that I got out.

My entire support system I was relying on collapsed. My family doesn't want to speak to me anymore, my friends all relapsed and are isolating and being terrible flaky junkies again, the guys I'm seeing have all let me down in one way or another. I've only got a temporary place to live in, in this sober living place for another 2 weeks.

I decided that same day that I finished the first rehab program, to fuck everything and run. I shot as much oxy, xanax, and mxe as I could get my hands on. Huge, huge doses that I knew I couldn't handle, all while knowing that I would OD. I was ready for it.

Somebody found me at 5 in the morning unconscious and I was rushed back to the hospital. Again. Apparently they couldn't wake me for hours. My roommate thought I was gone and was never coming back.

Goddammit, I am so fucking done with life. Why can't I just fucking die and leave this world already? I feel like there's nothing else for me to do anymore in this world. I've lived my fair share already. I have no desire to accomplish anything, make money, get married, have kids, have friends, or any of that bullshit. So what the fuck is the point of life anymore?

I've got no job now that I'm relocating, no car, nothing except my cell phone and $200. I swear to god, the high point of today is that I'm listening to dub step right now. I would give anything for a fat OD-dose of coachella right now so I can just fucking die to some Dubba Johnny and Flux P already.

I'm stuck in a rut right now and I'm not sure how else to get out of it at this moment. Eh. I'll be fine, guys. Life is just really sucking for me right now, and if I don't ever come back anymore, I guess you guys will know what happened to me. Don't worry about me though. I'll be fine. I just needed a place to rant for a minute. Peace.

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Just read this post...thats some pretty bad addiction issues you got CG. ide try to tone it down.

When u almost die and are lucky to live, but still you dont give a fuck about yourself you're in for some bad karma.


Really though no ones life is perfect, even though some rich and fortunate people get pretty close with less mortal coil.
We are all in fact the same as we are all just human and emotion is what makes us or breaks us.


Ide do some soul searching if i were you and also find some better friends.
Positive influence helps a lot, especially when you obsess on suicide.

Its not possible you have no desire to accomplish anything.

Everyone needs something or someone or somewhere, just gotta keep looking is what i tell myself.

anunnakian said:

Just found this post

Wiccan_Seeker said:

The member and former moderator Psilocybe_Cubensis was coerced to attend a Shroomery gathering in the midst of heroin withdrawal, hoping the "good vibes" would turn him around.

Far from it, while everybody was tripping balls he withdrew into a car a few meters away from the campsite and blew his brains out with a handgun.

Several who attended the gathering never were the same since.

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GoaM said:

Yeah, I heard about it from someone who was there. Gatherings kinda died with that and the economy I think. Feel empathy for jny and everyone who was there.

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