Growing drugs, getting drugs, doing drugs, all overrated in my opinion. The people you meet usually suck, because all the smart successful people are either quiet and hidden or in jail because they fucked up. Too many losers that try to find happiness in them. Growing is fun as hell, but you can't have friends over, or at least friends who have the slightest clue about drugs. Hell I still get people asking where to find shrooms, because I was the only hook up in town. No one knew how I got them, and I only charged them 5 bucks for up to 5 grams since it cost me to buy food cartons like raisins to smuggle them in to them in.
They didn't change a bit though, too many people just looking to get fucked up over. I was hoping their ideas would be destroyed by the experience, and get a little more appreciation for life so they can stop doing drugs to cope with their idea their lives' suck. Nope just "hey man, I was so fucked up, colors everywhere!" I thought the guys going to the army would see killing er "protecting our freedom" would be terrible after the experience. I guess I am on their level, naive, for I thought I didn't change from the experience because I already love life.
So until I find actual people who don't suck, but happen to include drugs sometimes in their life, I am out. Fuck losing my freedom for people who would huff paint if they could get away with it. Have to get rid of my supplies too, just dumped about 12 quarts of liquid culture in the woods and spawn bags are next when it is dark out. I need to clear this house of everything illegal so I can go back to what me and my friends used to best, disturb the town with potato cannons and megaphones. Couldn't do that either, because instead of being a public nuisance I would be a drug lord getting ass raped in prison. Sure I am more to myself when I am growing to lay low and obeying every law to avoid detection, but sometimes when you got to act on something less than legal you cannot due to the possibility of search warrants.
I need to find better people in general, no one kicks ass around here except my one friend, and her and I are probably going to date soon. Happy alone, but the A team of sorts slowly trickled away due to each member assembling a half ass team of losers who keep getting arrested for disturbing the peace and cannot outrun cops on foot in a semi rural area.
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