ok I'm not some freedom fighter clinically trained doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist/whatever here to tell you how great life is. this is to anyone who sees it. I've attempted suicide twice now, and I should be dead. I'm not going to get into it. I've been to the depths of pain. I see it all around me. It tormented my mind for years. But I've also seen things, felt things, around me that are too important to leave behind. This is after years of psych wards, drug treatment centres, half way homes, drugs, booze ( I'm drinking pommegranate coolers right now) confusion, TOOLS, methods, reason, logic, insanity, boredom. All I know is this. If you experience the world the way I do, you should be told about it. It might not be an answer that will pull you out of the Matrix, but I can tell you things that might make you think more about things that won't lead you to death. Maybe into curiosity, or affirmation. Belief, or emotion that will pull you from your personal abyss. Anyway, if you want to die and see this. At least get in contact with me before you do cuz I have something to say. I might not agree with everyone on earth, even feel disgust for some. If you're not a monster who deserves to die you need someone. So get back to me.
kylegrant1985@gmail.com
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