So, I've been curious about mushrooms for months. Bought full auto growkit of Golden Teacher and ruined it, so flushes are inconsistent 
Anyways, managed to get 10g of dried and 5-10 more pins are growing. Collected these first on Sunday, dried for 18h just to make sure. And 1 mushroom (yep, only one) was ready to harvest on Tuesday.
I work remotely as software engineer, and have regular calls at 8am. And my tiny alcohol addict brain decided it would be fun to try it Tuesday evening before work next day. After 100g of vodka and kebab I ate at 4-5pm, I took fresh one (8.5g fresh weight) at 7pm and 1.5g dried at 7:15pm. Yeah, I know, worst idea ever. (and yes, I live alone with a dog)
So, for 2h - no signs. I played piano, listened to music, watched reels. And just when I went to llm to complain that I was scammed letters started to look funny. Decided to go to bed then, found that pattern on blanket was moving a bit, open-ear headphones with classical music (Rachmaninoff, Schnittke, Scriabin). I didn't have much visuals, but I definitely felt something. When I closed my eyes I think I saw something that flowed with music, all I remember is that I couldn't control my hands, they were wiggly-wobbly all around my face, body, doing weird dances. At one moment I remember I tried to make letters using my hands but after 1-3 letters I forgot what I was doing.
All thoughts were... incomplete. I couldn't focus on thinking about anything. At some point I think words lost their meaning. I can't say it was a horror movie or bad trip. But it wasn't pleasant. At one moment my hand was not mine and I felt love when it was patting my head. At another moment I was tapping my wall to the rythm of the music. Funny stuff is that I understood who am I, why I'm like that. Couldn't make sense of any of that. I remember looking at clock to check time. Remember watching some reels and laughing on them, typing felt so funny and each mistake was interesting. But one thing I still kinda surprised of, music felt different. I knew it, I listened to these pieces hundreds of time. But it was different, like someone did a variation on it and re-uploaded, I even double checked that I opened what I intended to. When I opened my eyes I was back in reality, like nothing happened, but still couldn't make sentences longer than 1-3 words.
I started to realize reality better at 12am. At 1:30am finally I was trying to get to sleep. Overall experience felt like I have a high cold and trying to sleep, very similar feeling but without pain.
What did I got out of the trip? Probably nothing. It was unpleasant and a bit fun. Like a weird dream.
Will I take it again? yes, but with correct preparation flow and fasting.
P.S.: tripping to Schnittke Concerto Grosso 1 felt crazy.
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