SpaceDawg said:

I I don’t have a friend group that is participating in this woth me  Im a lone world. I’ve beveloped hapitscso to mental issues that have arise over the last few years. Heaving mushroom trips and dmt turns haavechaccthd thogets beoficial effects for sure. For my mental health.ketamine alcohol abien add Benzos just dull everything.. but and have mgvto teyvand fine some time so so dorm heavy psychedelic trips as thecsee t Iost benificil . I apologize I  very enerbriatecand it it hard to follow a train of though right nowx.

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SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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justaspore said:

Hi I was told this is where the cool kids hang out

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So they say. Fonzie was cool. I think we are more on the nerdy scientific side of things.

SpaceDawg said:

I I don’t have a friend group that is participating in this woth me  Im a lone world. I’ve beveloped hapitscso to mental issues that have arise over the last few years. Heaving mushroom trips and dmt turns haavechaccthd thogets beoficial effects for sure. For my mental health.ketamine alcohol abien add Benzos just dull everything.. but and have mgvto teyvand fine some time so so dorm heavy psychedelic trips as thecsee t Iost benificil . I apologize I  very enerbriatecand it it hard to follow a train of though right nowx.

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I'm sorry you're going through this brother.  Given how you're typing, and what you've ingested last night I think it's time for a change. I know what it's like to be where you are. It wasn't until I decided to make a change that I was able to kick some shit. Change comes from within and starts with ourselves.  I was hooked on PCP at one point in my life. It wasn't until I relized one time that I was for real smoking a piece of a shredded milk container laced with PCP that I was like WTF am I doing with my life and gave that shit up cold turkey.  I'm different though, I've given alot of shit up in my life that way.  I know it can be tough, but it can be done man. We are here for you...

Gilmour Hendrix said:

Time to kick. You dont need that dumb shit.  Sounds like your bored. You are filling your time with everything you mentioned. You know it's not good. Only you change that. It's a lot harder to change if you hang with people who are into the same. The only solution that worked for me was to cut them out. It's a hard pivot in terms of lifestyle. You can do it tho.

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callmehippie said:

Nope regular mod with sfd.

Ya that's what i thinking as well. Spawn it outside.  Gotta figure out how to keep the mice/rats away tho.

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SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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DERRAYLD said:

To what end though?
Is the goal to be drug free?

What's the point? Surely it's more about balance than stopping everything?

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justaspore said:

callmehippie said:

Nope regular mod with sfd.

Ya that's what i thinking as well. Spawn it outside.  Gotta figure out how to keep the mice/rats away tho.

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Maybe that bucket was for the mice and rats all along. Do those dudes trip? Would you be aiding in their evolution? 😂

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SpaceDawg said:

SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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I was blacked out when I wrote all this. Its kinda hard for me to read honestly. I appreciate all your comments and concerns. I'm really gonna take a long break from the alcohol. Its been causing me more issues the older I get and I tend to always get bad ideas like eat a bunch of my clonazepam and Ambien after I have been drinking(I took more than I thought I did last night).

I've been dealing with some health issues I developed a few years ago and I guess I let those things bring me down pretty hard sometimes. Need to find healthier ways to cope.

Gilmore you're right I don't need that dumb shit. AZ you are so right that change comes from within and starts with ourselves. OldDad I do work out but I should probably do more.

Sorry for actin a fool. I think I'm done drinking for good after this. I'm actually feeling kinda embarrassed haha.

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The opposite of addiction is connection. Reach out to people, feed strangers, join a club or a class. Stop hiding yourself away from the world.

Keep your chin up

SpaceDawg said:

SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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I was blacked out when I wrote all this. Its kinda hard for me to read honestly. I appreciate all your comments and concerns. I'm really gonna take a long break from the alcohol. Its been causing me more issues the older I get and I tend to always get bad ideas like eat a bunch of my clonazepam and Ambien after I have been drinking(I took more than I thought I did last night).

I've been dealing with some health issues I developed a few years ago and I guess I let those things bring me down pretty hard sometimes. Need to find healthier ways to cope.

Gilmore you're right I don't need that dumb shit. AZ you are so right that change comes from within and starts with ourselves. OldDad I do work out but I should probably do more.

Sorry for actin a fool. I think I'm done drinking for good after this. I'm actually feeling kinda embarrassed haha.

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SpaceDawg said:

SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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I was blacked out when I wrote all this. Its kinda hard for me to read honestly. I appreciate all your comments and concerns. I'm really gonna take a long break from the alcohol. Its been causing me more issues the older I get and I tend to always get bad ideas like eat a bunch of my clonazepam and Ambien after I have been drinking(I took more than I thought I did last night).

I've been dealing with some health issues I developed a few years ago and I guess I let those things bring me down pretty hard sometimes. Need to find healthier ways to cope.

Gilmore you're right I don't need that dumb shit. AZ you are so right that change comes from within and starts with ourselves. OldDad I do work out but I should probably do more.

Sorry for actin a fool. I think I'm done drinking for good after this. I'm actually feeling kinda embarrassed haha.

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You're good, broski.

Something that has helped me with changing habits is to keep the goal to myself. Reason being is that it feels like more pressure because everyone knows. Added stress. If I make a mistake and back-slide a little, the shame is so much greater because everyone sees that I am failing at the thing I said I was going to change/quit. Even after the change takes root, I wouldn't talk about it. Some one here used the term "Silent Pride". That's a good way to describe it.

That approach may or may not work for you. Other than work and my gf coming over on the weekend, I'm a loner. Just wanted to share so you have more tools to work with. We are here for ya, man. Nothing to be embarrassed about. You're going to be ok.

Gilmour Hendrix said:

Something that has helped me with changing habits is to keep the goal to myself.

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boxtrotalpha said:

Gilmour Hendrix said:

Something that has helped me with changing habits is to keep the goal to myself.

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There are studies that show that sharing a goal triggers the same part of the brain that activates when achieving the goal and they theorized that by sharing you're less likely to achieve because your brain already got the same happy chemicals it would have by doing the work so why bother. Not so fun fact for you

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SpaceDawg said:

SpaceDawg said:

I have a confession. Every time I take mushrooms or dmt I have an overwhelming internal voice that says all I need is mushrooms and dmt nothing else…I’ve quite weed after my last heavy trip and which I am proud of.

I don’t have that junk I need it in my life anymore. But I still find myself drinking and taking benzos, ambien and ketamine regularly. And I don’t necessarily  like that. I am scarred on the mushrooms and dmt for some reason even though after every experience I feel like I am a much better person.

I think I need to go on a cleanse of all other  and just focus on under taking mushroom and dmt trips on a set schedule. And just for myself to go through with it annd not copping out. Anyone else feel like this?

Edit: is some of this done at make sense it’s because irs 3 am am Im 2x2mg kpins abd a 12.5 Abien cr deep drinking high abv ipas.

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I was blacked out when I wrote all this. Its kinda hard for me to read honestly. I appreciate all your comments and concerns. I'm really gonna take a long break from the alcohol. Its been causing me more issues the older I get and I tend to always get bad ideas like eat a bunch of my clonazepam and Ambien after I have been drinking(I took more than I thought I did last night).

I've been dealing with some health issues I developed a few years ago and I guess I let those things bring me down pretty hard sometimes. Need to find healthier ways to cope.

Gilmore you're right I don't need that dumb shit. AZ you are so right that change comes from within and starts with ourselves. OldDad I do work out but I should probably do more.

Sorry for actin a fool. I think I'm done drinking for good after this. I'm actually feeling kinda embarrassed haha.

DERRAYLD said:

To what end though?
Is the goal to be drug free?

What's the point? Surely it's more about balance than stopping everything?

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I don't wanna be drug free completely but I wanna stop drinking alcohol and eating benzos and Ambien and blacking and doing dumb shit. Alcohol is always the catalyst so I'm going to stop drinking for a long while.     

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