So the past month I've been getting into a mix of meditative chakra practices, and an occasional tripping experience I would forgo once I've clamored all the built up thought to a point of infinite looping.
My ego I had about a month ago isn't apparent in my mind anymore, and those around me friends and family are seeing the same thing upon observation. I've been filled with good spirit. This good spirit came and I didn't give it a name or a thought of how precious it is to me. Good energy I just accept and don't deject the thought of or tend to question. It has brought foresight to my shadows of infinite deception.
I believe it came when I started to break down any systematic lines into one line to bring clarity. And when I began putting this thought into play it became a daily meditation. Day by day starting to flow more and more this breaking down of thought to perceive discord and harmony in the between. That of which process I like to call flow.
Spinning deceit into a web
When I'm in flow I take an image and spin it around a center axis point deep in my unconscious. Then I begin to cipher out the negative lines that come out in droves. Eventually it feels pure but not enough to the point of blinding luminosity. Past this point weird stuff begins to click even when not tripping.
Foresight
If I go beyond this point of rolling out images I'll start to descend into a tunnel of thought where all the systematic lines break down and begin to spin and scatter into arbitrary lines that don't make much sense. If I try to overcome it and control I lose control. If I just let it be then I feel ascending.
For me to ascend beyond this point I have to take everything in as whole and try to keep track of every spinning and lapsing line. There is no order in this space. Trying to control this space gets me nowhere. You must accept all as whole by bowing and observing every possible failure and then I can end off on a point that has the most fortune in it for me to tell. Or foresee.
I evaluate opacity in lines. And I put my own self revelation in it and bow and accept defeat to bring many more feats of victory into realization.
I've put this into my posture and way of dealing with problems. I feel as if this is an infinite solution to becoming one with self and becoming a true "Actor."
Conclusion
But I question this power. I can imitate people by doing it. I can say what they want to hear when doing it, but I question at the end of this. Am I deceiving me? But I've been looking at me through a tunnel and that is when I see the me in you that is in me. Imperfect and trips on ones own lines.
I don't go through all those stages. I choose the last one to learn something. I choose to spin a web of deception to catch the teller telling deceit. Doing so grounds me and I can raise a bar not a line. I feel heavy twitching in my forehead when I fully apply. And extreme twitching when tripping.
Has anyone experienced something similar to this? (My first post. I've been hovering here for awhile, & I love you all for connecting and growing so I could find this place to tell you.
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