AwakenKundalini said:

but this breakthrough was so powerful, to be honest im finding it extremely difficult to just continue living my normal life in light of what happened

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but when i get the urge to do it, i panic, my heart races and i get very anxious, i dislike it alot and it keeps me from my WORK as much as my true self would like

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what do you mean from WORK?

Are you saying you have work to do while in hyperspace? Or real-life work?

Because you shouldn't have to do anything in hyperspace, but just be.


You just got to take a leap of faith.
I took a small blast yesterday, just to dip my toes in the water again, and it reminded me how beneficial this molecule really is. It's a good thang.

Should have been dead

AwakenKundalini said:

noted... however ive had a few weeks integrating and ive decided, for one to make some major changes in my life-

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AwakenKundalini said:

the WORK is a constant evolution of conciousness, a disintegration of strong personality, a slow dissolution of the ego so that when you finally kill it, it stays dead, unlike on psychedellics-

there is always the debate about the REALITY of the experience, but this contact has manifested physically, and i cannto just brush that off, i am at a loss for how this is even possible

i agree that there is nothing external, but i would also say to that- your current perception of the outside world is internal as well, when we look into the cosmos, we are peering IN-TO our own mind-

youll search for God all over the world and never find him, because it was you the whole time- YOU are making ALL OF THIS HAPPEN

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Ah I see, yeah I know what you mean.

I agree, I think the external 'real' world is also internal as well.

And I agree about the God thang.

I've come to the same conclusion with DMT too.

The question I wonder is.. Why do you feel the need to continue?
It always seems that we can never get away from the ego, unless we go towards these direct experiences, where we kill it, and then after the experience we rebuild it. (rebuild it for better or worst)

So if you are rebuilding your ego for the worst, then it's probably best to kill it again and try again.

Just my 2cents.

Yeah it can be scary, I'll admit I'm pretty hesitant on doing it again too, but I know it's something I HAVE TO DO at some point. Because I rebuilt my ego with a bunch of building blocks. (Recently reverted back to old dr00g habits)

So

I think it all comes down to a leap of faith.

You just gotta do it, it's not the doing it that is hard, but what goes on inside your mind that makes it seem hard. It's really the simplest thang to do, but we make it difficult for ourselves.

I think being afraid of this molecule is also perfectly normal, because of the insane power it has.
It never was and never will be something to toy around with.
Just make sure to go in with POSITIVE INTENTIONS.

ellenallien said:

i wana BLAST

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me too

AwakenKundalini said:

watch him tell the story at least before you judge,'

the maharaji was a saint, he had accessed the kingdom we only get to glimpse on psychedelics


the sacraments let you glimpse it, but always drop you back down, when we can get there naturalkly

go to 7:00 in the video toi se ehim tell about the LSD, but really you should watch thew whole thing

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