i don't know what you mean by 'rituals'. compulsion is compulsion; something one does for the sake of endorphin rush and not truly out of love for the act. it's like an addiction. like when an addict steals pills from his grandmother. he doesn't want to, and feels horrible for it, but he's an addict and compulsion gets in the way of any rational thought what so ever. the only thing he has going through his mind are irrational justifications, and more than likely will feel horrible once he is high. twice a day, i would say it's compulsion, but i'm the only person i know so thats what twice a day is to me. try not jacking off for a couple of weeks. it takes effort on ones part to do that, but i think it's worth. the point of this is just to get a good idea of what you were doing, to see it from the outside so to speak. this includes not thinking about sex acts, because that's basically porn. one might say this is unhealthy, and that one must have that release to maintain prostate health. but your prostate takes care of itself, it'll release for you if it needs to (think wet dream).
there is nothing wrong with eroticism. there is most definitely beauty in the human form and the act of sex imo. but mouth fucking porn, think 'facialabuse.com', isn't about that. it's about getting off to pain... i really think that is twisted. and it does harm people. especially the ones gagging.
i used to watch some really fucked up shit to get off and it was fucking with my mind. i thought i was comfortable with my sexuality and then i had to turn to things i never thought i would just to get turned on... just to reach a desired level of orgasm. looking back on it i know why man...
read this little article;
http://www.reuniting.info/measuring_porns_effects_simon_louis_lajeunesse
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