This is hard to relate without coming off as a nutter to some. I guess it cannot be avoided, so here we go.

Over a year ago i was in a condition of complete despair on all levels. Earthly, Spiritual, the whole shebam. I lay down in my bed and let it flow through me. At one point my despair was at its very apex and internally I cried out: "GOD; ANSWER MEEEEE!!!"
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Well, right then at that point I got answered. An inner dialog started. Not like hearing a voice, simply thoughts that answered questions I posed it. Needless to say I got pretty damn scared at first fearing my brain had blown a gasket and that I was going stark raving insane.

The 'voice' or rather the 'thought' calmly reassured me that I wasnt going insane and that it in fact was healthy.
Imagine that didnt quite alleviate my fear somehow

I asked it to go away because it scared the crap out of me and it did, telling me it would be back at times where I would not fear it and be more receptive.

Since then it occasionally visits me and offers, for lack of better words, love, support and guidance.

Earlier this afternoon, lying in bed because of cardiovascular trouble, it visited me again. Here are a three things that I received from beyond in response to some of my questions.


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I am not the concept you have of God.
I am You - and that is greater.
Life is a Dream
And I am the Dream and the Dreamer.

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You are going nowhere - you are already there.

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You will not reincarnate.
Something much more beautiful awaits you.
It is not Heaven.
It is not Hell.

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Wiccan_Seeker said:This is hard to relate without coming off as a nutter to some. I guess it cannot be avoided, so here we go.

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You have come to the proper sub-forum Thank you for sharing your experience.

This internal dialog is what many aim to achieve during meditation and other altered states of consciousness. I can't help but hypothesize that you became receptive to your "higher self", which is your guru and guide which now operates in a higher level of existence (the 5th density according to the Law of One). This idea that "life is a dream" seems to be what all the great mystics and spiritual teachers have been saying for ages. In explaining we are also the "dreamer", we are co-creating this waking reality, and it is a lot less rigid than the average person would believe.

You put a smile on my face for the day

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This internal dialog is what many aim to achieve during meditation and other altered states of consciousness.

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Have a spiritual/existential crisis and at rock bottom demand to see the manager, it worked for me

The message "I am you, life is a Dream, I am the Dreamer and the Dream" is a very potent one. Complete One-ness of all, and this being you. I have enough reality check to not jump off a cliff but if the above message is true, a particularly realized Teacher might very well walk on water, or turn it into wine. If the man and the water are One, both the Dreamer and any possible Dream in one, such may very well be possible.

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In explaining we are also the "dreamer", we are co-creating this waking reality, and it is a lot less rigid than the average person would believe.

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You put a smile on my face for the day

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But the average person needs it broken down into terms the ego can understand

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May I ask if you subscribe to any spiritual path?

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I believe you shouldn't learn from others, you should learn from direct experience. Especially spiritual books are death traps for spiritual growth. People "learning" spiritual concepts without actually "feeling" them, the misled skill we honed in the schooling system. Others may have acquired knowledge that is truly valuable, but unless it becomes REAL to you, reading about it or being told about it does little good most of the time. Many people "get the concept" of something but don't see that the concept is beside the point. Its about getting THE EXPERIENCE, the concept is only a pointer. Its like people who never tripped but studied psychedelics and read trip reports sharing their wisdom. No Sir, its not like you think it is at all. Words and concepts cannot touch your soul psychedelically. Only the specific molecule, in the right quantity, will do that for you. Words and concepts can never substitute for the experience, the real thing, they can only point in its general direction.

I deliberately read a minimum of spiritual texts and instead look inward for my answers. If someone tells me something of potential value, I look inward to connect it.

My path is mine first and foremost. I'm not a Buddhist, or Hindu, or Christian, or Muslim, though at times I seek their texts out I find many things in them that I found within myself.

Oh, and I don't believe in Absolute Truth. I dont believe in anything more than 99%, including internal revelations. Absolute Truth is the realm of zealots and suicide bombers.

As to meditation, typically I lie down naked and comfortable in my bed in a dark room, close my eyes and listen to the thoughts flowing through me.  Not altering them, not actively thinking, just being Observer Only. The stream of thoughts becomes a trickle, your eyes go offline, you go in shutdown without moving into sleep. Once theres been some Nothingness, I know I'm done. I the first thing I notice is usually my eyes coming online, then I drift up and I start making connections as to what I've experienced.

May I ask whats so interesting about my psychedelic experiences? From your viewpoint? I'm always looking for new insights to latch onto, it isnt my ego wallowing in complacency

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Maybe I'm not getting enough experience... applying what I know to my daily life.

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unless you plan on meditating all day long... (which i dont recommend )
eat some mushrooms. (which i strongly recommend )
Alone.. in darkness..

ask the mushroom... to guide you towards the contact.
it would rather do that than do its own work..
trust me.
thats basically what it does regardless...

whether you focus on a plant.. or your pet dog.. or your girlfriend if you have one..
it will attempt to connect to you the creative spirit dwelling within the entity of your choosing. (hence the telepathic experiences accompanying a psilocybin intoxication)
if you focus on the mushroom itself.. then.. you are in for a 1 on 1 with it.

So..just ask for the big guy


just imagine.. how the mushroom is your friend.. and it knows the way.

for every wave of good feeling... even if it is bodily ... express your gratitude in which ever way you know. For some reason.. i think this is very important.
i was simply saying thank you.
while you still have the ability to formulate sentences... communicate that way.

when this is gone..
it will simply catapult you up.
you will feel... like you've met dry land after sailing for all your life.

after that...
well.. ill leave that up to you.

when you 'come back' .. and remember your name..
when you remember how to do the things you do every day instead of just being and experiencing utter bliss constantly...
come here.. and tell us .. if you can..
what the fuck just happened ?

and WHY it is you that has to make contact ?

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You say it visits you now and then...how do you know when "it" is upon you?

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Usually the Thought starts talking to me. It tends to be provoked by actions I want to take or decisions I have to make. The trend is benevolent corrective guidance. It "shows the path" so to say, when there are choices. A key phrase with actions I take, and which sounds terribly threatening in English which it really isnt, is "you will pay for this" intended not as a thread, but as an empathic reminder that there will be negative consequences of said action further down the road.

An example will be deeply inhaling a cigarette. It warns against deeply inhaling, and objectively, medically, it makes perfect sense. In the episode that started this thread I asked about quitting smoking. I got the message the time was not ripe, and that I in some time would get the message to quit, when things are right to stay quit.

Some of the things seem counterintuitive. Society and common sense tells you to quit smoking right this instant, The Thought tells me to go ahead, not inhale deeply and wait for the right moment, which will be announced. Apparently smoking now benefits my wellbeing more than quitting does

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In what way does "it" usually communicate with you? It is full-sensory communication or verbal/thoughts only? Emotions?

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It comes as thoughts and the thoughts evoke emotion. It stands apart from the usual line of thought and is clearly a dialog. You'll know if it happens to you

What its not is a voice, it comes as a thought and I quote: "I'm not the concept you have of God;  I am you" it doesnt pose blatantly delusional suggestions.

It is strong yet it is fragile. I have to keep my mind neutral to it, if I get anxiety about it or the message anxiety takes over and distorts the message to enhance my fear. Then I disconnect, theres no point in that. If I'm "on the path" the Thought makes luminous sense, if I'm off the path, such as gripped by fear, its as subjective as your everyday thoughts can be, coloring it with your fears and expectations. I always feel when I'm driving it with my consciousness or when it comes spontaneously (the subconscious or beyond).

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Is it's communication more pronounced than your thoughts or do your thoughts drop away at it's arrival?

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Does it only respond or does it actively produce communication if you remain quiet?

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and WHY it is you that has to make contact ?

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I get something similar to that. I would describe it as a thought of complete clarity, much like an epiphany. Its always calming and wise.

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Aye! When the time is ripe - it will contact you.

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i dont want go as far as to say that i disagree.. but ones intent must be strong , otherwise the free will wont be infringed upon.
unless you want to...you wont know of it.

its hand is constantly saying 'come back' ...

you are the one that must accept it...
when and how.. is entirely your choice.


this was my first contact from a while ago
.. or at least what i have perceived it to be.

http://www.shroomery.org/forums/showflat.php/Number/9145170#9145170

i was such a noob

but ever since...