Hey all, This is kind of therapy for me. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this.
I am 22 yrs old, and my girlfriend is 20. She was diagnosed with Chrones, Auto Immune Colongitis and Endometriosis a few years ago. We've been together for 4 years now.
When we first got together, she was a virgin and I wasn't. So like any sensitive guy, I made 'her first' special. Dinner, candles, massage...the works. Only to have allot of trouble with penetration. Figuring this was just because she was 'tight' and I'm not exactly small, we tried again and again. Each time to end with her in pain and me looking awkward.
4 years in, this problem still exists. We have talked about this allot. The main problem being, I LOVE sex, and could easily go once a day. But I find myself, almost resenting my g/f for not giving me any. This is not on purpose, I don't literally attack her. But I find there's so many things in society and everyday life that leads to sex. eg. When we go out, I get anxious because we both start drinking and I know that we'll end up a little horny and we go through the same saga again.
The really hard thing is she knows what I feel. So she's always trying to please me (Blowjobs ect) which are great, but I feel like I'm getting second prize.
I've thought many times about breaking up with her, but I do love her allot. Besides the sex, I've had an amazing 4 years with her. She stands by whatever I do, and I do the same. But it's very hard when there can be nothing sexual between you and your partner.
If anyone is in/has been in a relationship like this, please share your thoughts/experiences.
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