Relationships are about coexistence, not co dependence.
You're 19, don't share kids, and aren't married. You two owe eachother nothing.
You both obviously have a great degree of emotional issues to sort out. If you stay together, you'll both remain emotionally retarded for the rest of your years, not to mention miserable.
If you can, go get some serious behavioral therapy and then get away from this abusive relationship.
Realize that most decisions made on the basis of emotions end up being a mistake, as evidenced by your cycling relationship.
If she kills herself, it's not your fault. Each person makes their own choices, and unless she's mentally disabled or under some freaky voodoo hex or something, killing herself will be her choice. You're not responsible for her emotional well-being, nor her life. While it might hurt if she kills herself, you won't be the one who made her do it and it really won't be your fault.
You know the answer, even if it's scary. You two can't be together, and it has to end. Be responsible, do the adult thing, and let go so that both of you can move on, grow up, and get out of this mess.
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