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Humbled
#7976906 - 02/04/08 08:56 AM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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Namaste!
Last night, I was graciously humbled. Humbled to a new Love, like waking up from a dream. Humbled to so many degrees that I can't even begin to tell you!!! 
It all started when I dosed or actually, about an hour and a half after.
I was smoking a bowl, at around the time I peaked, when I noticed myself glaring at.... myself (yep, looking into a mirror ). I focussed my Awareness on looking into my eyes, and at my face, and at the hair growing out of my face and scalp, and everything else that makes up "me". But beyond all of this, I saw myself, Smiling like I've never seen myself Smile.
Wow! That is something. It was just like Ram Dass said in Be Here Now! I'm standing on a bridge, watching myself go by! Or in my case, looking in a mirror and finding myself in it!
So, I'm sitting in my room, and I decide there is nothing to do but meditate. So, I meditated on that person that was smiling back at me in the mirror. And such a vibration of Divine Humility came over me! So Humbled!!!!
And I look around my room and see a picture of Neem Karoli Baba smiling, blissed out as usual. 
That person smiling, is "me" smiling!!

So humbled. What else can I do but try to make my entire life a pranam (bow) to THAT Smile? So, I devote my being to Loving THAT Smile. THAT Smile! It's definitely beyond the person smiling. Maybe even beyond the idea that makes the person smile. But the Smile is there within all and above all.
And as the sun Rises, I'm playing my dotar and chanting and I finally "Understand". Giving In. Humbled.
I sat outside, lit lots of incenses, and smoked another bowl. And I was just there. Smoking a bowl, tending to my little guru fire, chanting.

 Jai Ma!!!
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   All this time I've loved you And never known your face All this time I've missed you And searched this human race Here is true peace Here my heart knows calm Safe in your soul Bathed in your sighs
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Hugs lead straight to THAT Smile!!!
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Edited by dirtworshipper (02/04/08 09:02 AM)
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Yes, they do!
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I couldn't stop smiling reading this!
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THAT Smile!!!!
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What's wring with THIS one? 
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 it's still THAT Smile!
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Next topic: "did we evolve from goats?"
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smiling is good, i despise people and their serious faces. too many serious faces around.
does anyone ever get the feeling in public places where they want to just burst out in laughter, and it is just so hard to contain?
earlier today it was so hard to hold in, i let out the biggest smile and people stared... it was great.
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Re: Humbled [Re: deranger]
#7977849 - 02/04/08 02:18 PM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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smiling is good but the people behind "their serious faces" is also good

ah, the Cosmic Giggle! that's It!
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Nothing like an equally loud death face to go with that smile.
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This thread made me cry.
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Re: Humbled [Re: Lion]
#7977869 - 02/04/08 02:25 PM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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crying and joy are cousins.
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Re: Humbled [Re: Lion]
#7977908 - 02/04/08 02:34 PM (15 years, 11 months ago) |
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Quote:
Lion said: This thread made me cry.
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A smile can be deciving, as can a frown, we all wear masks.
...As you said, that is why it is important we see the face behind the mask. I'm glad yours is smiling
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