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JacquesCousteau
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Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart.
#5402883 - 03/15/06 10:57 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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So I managed to abstain from mary jane for 10 days now. I started out on this abstinence in hope of getting a job I applied for 10 days ago. The outlook seemed good... the guy seemed to like me, and we seemed to click on a more subtle level.
Then, over the last few days, waiting until the day he said I should call back for a final answer, I managed to let myself build up a belief that I would get the position. I started to piece together some theory that I had successfully read into some of the signs pointing me in the right direction, towards this job.
Infact, these subtleties are one of the only things that kept me clean.
Finally got the call today...
"We're fully staffed, but I'll hold onto your resume and let you know if something opens up."
It seems like every time I think I see things unfolding in front of me, my very quasi-realization manages to be what smashes my chances.
This sucks. I've been unemployed since September. I really needed this job. I'm going to end up back at 7-11 again. FUCK.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402900 - 03/15/06 11:03 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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I always get the jobs where I think the interviewer will never call back. Four times in a row, infact (four jobs).
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402901 - 03/15/06 11:03 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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daimyo
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402907 - 03/15/06 11:04 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Oh, and don't start smoking either! Get your ass back out there and find something else while you have a head start on sobriety.
Good luck.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402911 - 03/15/06 11:04 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Sorry to hear about that man...
I'm just curious, are you back smoking now? If so, and you're using this as an excuse to be smoking when you actually want to be taking a break..you need to step back and take a look at things. Don't let the outcome of this situation affect yourself-confidence in another area of your lfie.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: OneMoreRobot3021]
#5402919 - 03/15/06 11:07 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: Sorry to hear about that man...
I'm just curious, are you back smoking now? If so, and you're using this as an excuse to be smoking when you actually want to be taking a break..you need to step back and take a look at things. Don't let the outcome of this situation affect yourself-confidence in another area of your lfie.
No, I'm not smoking. You can bet I considered it.
This just SUUUUUCKS though. I'm so down now, and I'm abstaining from the one thing that manages to pull me out of this kind of funk.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402920 - 03/15/06 11:07 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Well shit.
I'm really sorry, I was crossing my finegrs AND toes for you 
Keep looking, and I'm sure something will come up. I'll keep my eyes out for you too. Check craigslist, there's a ton of jobs on there. Let me know if you're looking at any specific fields and I'll help you look
-------------------- Remember, remember the fifth of November The gunpowder treason and plot. I see no reason why gunpowder treason Should ever be forgot.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402923 - 03/15/06 11:08 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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dont feel bad. Im 18 and youd think people would want a fresh youngen that they could train to do it "their way" and all that. ive applied over and over agian. nodda. no ones hiring. im bout to gfet booted out if I cant gets a job, but no one will hire me. good luck man.
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402924 - 03/15/06 11:08 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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JacquesCousteau said:
I'm abstaining from the one thing that manages to pull me out of this kind of funk.
Come on, you and I both know you just lied to yourself. BEcause you're approaching the idea of "the funk" improperly. You're assigning the term "the funk" to your mental mood. The real funk is the situation you're in, and needing a job. And picking your pot habit back up again is NOT going to help that. And believe it or not, the job funk is more important than the mood funk right now simply because there are quick fixes for your mood, but the base of your mood is the fact that you need a job.
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: Liz]
#5402928 - 03/15/06 11:09 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Thanks Liz... I don't really know what I'm looking for... I'm pretty much looking for anything at this point I guess... locale is more important to me, looking for something in northern Mass or Southern NH so we can possibly move closer to where Sam's working.
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: OneMoreRobot3021]
#5402929 - 03/15/06 11:10 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Yeah, I know. Thanks Robot... and I thought you didn't like me... :P
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402934 - 03/15/06 11:10 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Really? I get snippy in the mod forum a lot...
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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Liz
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402935 - 03/15/06 11:10 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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I'll look. And Robot's right, don't let this force you back down...you need to keep a positive attitude as hard as it is.
I'm sure Sam will help cheer you up when she's home
-------------------- Remember, remember the fifth of November The gunpowder treason and plot. I see no reason why gunpowder treason Should ever be forgot.
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: OneMoreRobot3021]
#5402943 - 03/15/06 11:12 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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OneMoreRobot3021 said: Really? I get snippy in the mod forum a lot...
I don't know, man... I just get a vibe from a lot of people like they want nothing to do with me... there's a lot of people who never respond directly to me, even if I respond directly to them first... etc... I don't know, it's probably all in my head. Sorry.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402949 - 03/15/06 11:13 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Paranoid stoner. 
/points to the door
OUT OF THE PUB!
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: Liz]
#5402950 - 03/15/06 11:13 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Liz said: I'm sure Sam will help cheer you up when she's home
Yeah... she won't be back til like 8 tonight, going to her dad's after work.
I'd like to get myself cheered up before that seven hour stretch of alone time is done with.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402953 - 03/15/06 11:13 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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uhe yah, all in your head.. 
j/k
-------------------- one branch of man turns away what has made us who we are, the other,excepts it for how its made man. which path do you choose? ------------------------------------- Man takes advantage of who he is,nature is his home, where he evolved from. So why does he turn it down, defy, and mutalate his birth ground? why does he spread disease, murder his native animals,rape and torture his land, and still feel descent of who he is? live a life that is not true? excepts an artificial home?
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JacquesCousteau
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402954 - 03/15/06 11:14 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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Hardest part of extensive unemployment is definitely how much time I spend alone... it really starts to eat away at you. I don't have many friends in real life... and the ones I do have are potheads. Blah.
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Liz
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402955 - 03/15/06 11:14 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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You could call our house, and tell suffer you're coming over. He's good at cheering people up, and he's home being a bum 
Plus Lucy is cute. You can't be in a bad mood for long around her.
-------------------- Remember, remember the fifth of November The gunpowder treason and plot. I see no reason why gunpowder treason Should ever be forgot.
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Re: Just when you think it's figured out... well it all falls apart. [Re: JacquesCousteau]
#5402959 - 03/15/06 11:15 AM (17 years, 10 months ago) |
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JacquesCousteau said: Hardest part of extensive unemployment is definitely how much time I spend alone... it really starts to eat away at you. I don't have many friends in real life... and the ones I do have are potheads. Blah.
Jacques...you remind of me back this summer before I was working. You remind of me because I know that like me, you are bursting with the desire to create. Yet that alone time can be such a muck, and can wind up feeling so wasted and unproductive..
Set yourself some goals...schedules for different days, things you want to get done..
Will yourself to Action
-------------------- Acid doesn't give you truths; it builds machines that push the envelope of perception. Whatever revelations came to me then have dissolved like skywriting. All I really know is that those few years saddled me with a faith in the redemptive potential of the imagination which, however flat, stale and unprofitable the world seems to me now, I cannot for the life of me shake. -Erik Davis
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