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I don't want to get killed, I just want the hallucinations and dissociation for meditative experiences.

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a good thing you clarified that, there!


Its unlikely Panaeolus subbalteatus will kill you, but you will kick yourself if you do not take sporeprints and grow those Pan Subs on moist cardboard!

If you have studied psychedelics well and know that taking them is nothing less then a big Life Decision you should start out with a bit and slowly work it up until you reach a satisfactory level or you get worrisome body effects. (some puke bile as they can't stand them, while I am mildly allergic to psilocybin itself)

I have read figures that suggest Pan Sub often contains 0.8-4mg Psilocybin in a dried state and a ton of Baeocystin which makes me highly keen on trying them. A meditatively viable (that means you actually meditate to enhance the session) dosage for most is 5mg Psilocybin so this works out to some 1-6 grams dried.

Nobody can tell you how sensitive you are to these mushrooms, so if you want to take it you gotta bet yourself on it, so best make it a safe bet. It would seem unlikely to me that even a kilo of fresh Pan Sub mushrooms would kill or seriously hurt your body but it is highly likely your mind will go to Hell in a handbasket if you discover how strong it grows, meaning a tremendous panic and perhaps a nervous breakdown or worse.
Cautiously up the dose. Once its in, its in...