Anonymous #5 said:

Physical withdrawal from opiates on any level is hell on earth but it's really the mental that's the hardest to overcome or no one would relapse after marked periods of sobriety.

You're playing a serious game of russian roulette if you keep doing what you're doing. This is progressive. Soon what you are doing will spiral. It's just what happens with addiction, physical and mental, across the board.

The way to handle mental cravings is not to give in to them but rather figure out a healthy way to cope with them. Cravings are fleeting, temporary feelings. Get up, move around. Practice mindfulness. Go for a walk, a run. Find routine. Listen to music. Punch something that isn't destructive to self, others, or property. Dance. Call someone. Go for a drive with music blasting, windows rolled down. Meditate. Find whatever works for you. You'll find that it gets easier as time goes but sometimes cravings will hit, sometimes it will make sense and sometimes it will seem as though it comes out of nowhere. You just can't obsess over it or sit in it otherwise you will use the drug you are trying to avoid. It's inevitable in that case.

Sometimes it takes time, it certainly takes work, to figure out what works for oneself but it's a hurdle that can be overcome. The biggest thing is not to do it alone. As they say, in situations like these, "the mind is a dangerous neighborhood, no one should go there alone". & you don't have to.

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Anonymous #1 said:

Well, I went 7 days without using so far.

I almost slipped up on day 3, went in the bathroom to take some oxy.

Without really thinking, I threw them all in the toilet and flushed it really fast. Instantly regretted that shit with every ounce of my soul

But I broke through the habit of using atleast once a week and don't see any reason to use again.

Im still having cravings but they are getting easier to resist, especially since I dont have any oxy immediately available.

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