Okay I feel like one of the biggest losers typing this, but I need to get help with this.
I have really bad social anxiety I always have since I was a little child and I'm 19 now. I blush when I have to speak in front of a crowd of people I don't know, always. That's my first problem so I view myself as weird, quiet, and nervous when I'm around people I don't know or in a classroom setting.
My second problem is I have horrible OCD. And this might sound like the dumbest thing ever, but I think I am addicted to looking at my under eye fine lines in the mirror. They aren't bags or dark circles, just 2 or 3 lines under my eyes. I feel like this makes me look like a crackhead junkie or like I'm 30. So basically I have an addiction at looking at myself, which makes me feel like shit when I see those lines, so I think that's a big part of why I'm depressed. My eyes look like this picture should I be worried?
http://www.google.com/imgres?q=under+eye+fine+line&um=1&hl=en&sa=N&tbo=d&biw=1366&bih=667&tbm=isch&tbnid=_n4qlwUzPHzspM:&imgrefurl=http://www.lovelyish.com/698018452/all-about-your-eyes-dark-circles-puffiness-fine-lines/&docid=EW27yaLEyg3DbM&imgurl=http://fc81.deviantart.com/fs32/i/2008/201/1/6/My_Lovely_Eye_by_leash1994.jpg&w=400&h=394&ei=44cAUYW_Momw0AHKsYGABg&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=163&vpy=103&dur=5490&hovh=223&hovw=226&tx=112&ty=91&sig=113133284225580076451&page=1&tbnh=120&tbnw=145&start=0&ndsp=31&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:0,i:87
I know I don't find a person attractive when they have bags or lines under their eyes. I don't really care and I'd still treat them like an equal human, but I wouldn't date them or anything. Can you guys give me any advice or something on how to stop? I feel like I'm ruining my life. I'm constantly thinking about these lines when people are talking to me or around me. I feel really embarrassed by them. I don't know what I expect you guys to do, but I just really needed to get this out.
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