After my parents divorced, my mother and I moved in with my aunt and older cousins (actually my moms cousins, but they were closer to my age than hers.)
My female cousin was probably 5 years older than me (maybe 11, and i was 6 roughly) and i remember playing doctor and feeling inside her. I don't really remember many details, but there was definitely penetration with fingers ... I don't think i was even capable of having erections at the time, and certainly didn't think or know about sexuality at all, at the time.
I actually just remembered, this had gone on before we moved in, during sleep overs aswell.
Infact, i remember playing around doing things like "if you show me yours, i'll show you mine," when i was in kindergarten and grade 2, during day care or during lunch break. Multiple girls i did this with...
However, with the cousin, she had instigated it, and probably taught me that behavior...
I was semi-worried about it for years, since it seems so strange. However, in context, it was non sexual and purely experimental. No one was hurt, abused, or mislead and it was always consensual...
I have had a number of relationships over the years, although i was fairly unsexual through most of my teens and i often wondered if it was due to shame/awkwardness because of these events. However, i am just settling into a serious relationship with a regular girl and we have a killer sex life.
I am 24.
OP - i think you will be fine, it's in the past and sounds like it was simple childhood curiousity/experimentation. I wouldn't over think it, if i was you...
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