I already know I will kill myself, I just haven't planned when and how. It probably won't be anytime soon, but I really admire Hunter S. Thompson's logic of total control of your death just as you had control of your life. I can't really see myself living too long, and it seems every day I grow more depressed and miserable than the day before.
I've basically ruined every relationship I've ever had because I'm an insecure tool. I'm a self-destructive person who wont allow myself to become too close to anyone out of fear of rejection. I'm hard on people, especially those closest to me. Basically I'm just an asshole and the world will probably wont be any better with me out of it - but it certainly couldn't be any worse.
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