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Anonymous #1
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I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me.
#7933923 - 01/26/08 08:18 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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I've got lots of p roblems and my future is probably fucked to hell, and if all else fails I'll probably end up going on a nothing to lose stupid heroin addiction and committing suicide.
But right now, I'm not going to do that, because there is still a chance that life may go good. I estimate that I have a 50/50 chance of a great and happy life. But the other 50 is a chance that I'll lose everything.
Just tell me I'm doing the right thing right now and tell me to keep doing it. That's all I need.
Fuck me, oh fuck me.
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Anonymous #2
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7934073 - 01/26/08 09:11 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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hey, atleast you dont have AIDs.
and if you do... well... fuck.
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Anonymous #3
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #2]
#7934104 - 01/26/08 09:19 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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Nah fuck that bro! Snap out of it and get a suboxone script! Do you have insurance? I was a junkie/crackhead/cokefiend for 10 yrs and I will say if it wasn't for God I would have a needle in my arm now or be dead. I had a 60 bag a day habit and 1/2oz of coke. I stole almost a million $$ in Jewelery over a year period and got locked up. The 1st time I got out I spent 2k of my work release money on 5 bundles and a 1/2z of coke the 1st day and the same the next....and the rock and powder ate up the rest. I feel your pain man...after watching 9 out of 12 of us die by the spike I just couldn't go on...but I thank God for finally getting a Dr on my provider network. I was paying $100/week for the script but even that was cheaper then dope., now I pay $25 and I go once a month. Just start with small tasks and complete them and before you know it you will be on your way. I hate to say it but if you don't believe in God you are gonna have a real hard time ever sobering up for an extended period of time, but I am sure either way you will make it. You know you are better than this shit, right? You can PM me anytime if you need to talk.
~Art
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Anonymous #4
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #3]
#7934340 - 01/26/08 10:47 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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Is that you dobie?
Don't do it man. things will get better, just simmer down and stay out of the bar.
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Anonymous #5
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7934359 - 01/26/08 10:53 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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Stick with it man. Things will brighten up for you. Just stay positive and create goals for yourself to achieve.
I have faith in you man
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Anonymous #6
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7934385 - 01/26/08 10:59 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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go to jail man.
jail is a pretty fucked up way to die. I think i'm going to go to jail pretty soon.
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Anonymous #7
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #6]
#7934444 - 01/26/08 11:13 AM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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If you are going to lose everything and know it... Then that means you can plan for it.
Get rid of all your shit or start going in public and try and do the craziest shit ever. Don't give a fuck because you are gonna do yourself in. Go nuts man, its fun. Then when your done, you won't be able to blow your shit for brains off because you actually had fun and liked what you did. Now change your fucking life and do this nigga urr day you beezy.
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Anonymous #8
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #7]
#7936146 - 01/26/08 04:49 PM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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Seriously man, 50/50 is fuckin awesome!
Most people are about 20/80, 0/100...
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Anonymous #9
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #8]
#7936293 - 01/26/08 05:36 PM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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Quote:
Anonymous said: Seriously man, 50/50 is fuckin awesome!
Most people are about 20/80, 0/100...
yeah...that's about where I'm at right now
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Anonymous #10
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #9]
#7936385 - 01/26/08 05:56 PM (16 years, 6 days ago) |
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betting all your money on black?
good luck!
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Anonymous #11
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #10]
#7939033 - 01/27/08 03:33 AM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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if you got nothing to lose, there are much better ways you can direct your life. e.g: living naked in a jungle lol though- heres a little quote from a book though:
"we seek problems, so we can receive their gifts"
on a higher lvel maybe that your not aware of, you self generated this situation so that you could learn from it.
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Anonymous #12
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #11]
#7939083 - 01/27/08 04:18 AM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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I knew someone was gonna think it was me but no this is dobie and it aint me
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Anonymous #1
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #12]
#7939136 - 01/27/08 05:24 AM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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(Original Poster)
Yeah, it ain't dobie. Nor is it Muppet.
My problems aren't drug related, either. I don't even drink.
My problems have three areas, none more important than the other, because each one very directly effects the other and the loss of one would be the loss of all.
- My finances - My future marriage - My education
Don't doubt my situation, it is as serious as I make it seem. I'm not living a conventional life at all and I guarantee it is unique.
If everything works out, which I will find out in a year and a half, then I will be set up for a wonderful life. I will explain everything in great detail at that time.
Until then, I'm going to have one hell of a rocky life. And at that point, in a year and a half, I'll know if I'm fucked and lost it all or if I'm on the road to a wonderful life.
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Anonymous #13
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7939837 - 01/27/08 11:39 AM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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I don't get it...when I first read your post I thought that you should just get over yourself and stop taking yourself so seriously. Life is a joke. It's funny. Laugh at yourself and lighten up, dude.
Even if you kill yourself, who cares? Not the universe. You make your own choices and you're putting yourself in an all or nothing situation to begin with just by having so many expectations. Just flow.
What I'm hearing is:
"If something in the universe doesn't go my way, I'm just going to throw in the towel and pout. Because MY SITUATION is UNIQUE." 
Oh boo hoo.
I don't know your situation. You're leaving it intentionally vague, which I can appreciate. So I'm just responding from what I am perceiving, which no doubt is colored by the veil of who I am and in a way, replying to you like this is a way of talking to myself, so thank you.
Just don't expect anything. It's okay no matter what, even if you get addicted to heroin and die. But I hope you don't, because that's so lame.
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Anonymous #14
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #13]
#7940081 - 01/27/08 12:36 PM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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I agree.
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Anonymous #11
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #13]
#7940132 - 01/27/08 12:43 PM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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maybe you being too hard on yourself, with too bigger tasks with too great (maybe unrealistic) expectations?
Keep things in balance.
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Anonymous #3
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #14]
#7940138 - 01/27/08 12:45 PM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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Well hopefully you year and a half plan works but you should have another just in case. Life doesn't suck, only our perception of it can be shitty. Any one day as a junkie I felt more pain than I can even remember. Even when clean which was why I used, stress and boredom added to it. Compared to some Ethiopian stick with eyes I have it pretty good, even when hungry I was never starving, I could always go steal from a store. Stay positive cuz unless God just apeared and said your life is shit you have more than you need to have a secure future. It WILL get better if you chose to have a good future.
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Anonymous #11
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Re: I don't want to explain my problems, so just agree with me. [Re: Anonymous #11]
#7940147 - 01/27/08 12:46 PM (16 years, 5 days ago) |
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and maybe your letting your future wife, run you? if it's a negative connection with finances etc.
though if what you want is what you "really" want.
just knuckle down. and your efforts will pay off.
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