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Anonymous #1
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my mom died a few days ago
#7770569 - 12/17/07 05:24 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thursday my mother didn't show up at my father's house to take my little brother to school, or to pick him up from school and take him home. When I found out around 430pm, I immediately somehow knew she was dead.
I called my father, and we rushed over there. All of her cars were there, but the doors were locked and the only light I could see on is her 'night light'.
I used a key like a bump key to turn the deadbolt, and found her dead in her bed. Her nose was bleeding all over her pillow. I looked around and found the cocaine she'd been doing. There was just enough left for her to get a "pick me up" to get my little brother to school the next morning. She was planning on waking up.
I also found 26 blue xanax and 98.5 xanax in the drawer next to her bed. There were two used shot glasses on the kitchen table, and a wine glass with just a small red spot stained in the bottom center of it. The last thing she had thrown away was a very large bottle of wine.
The autopsy revealed what I had assumed. That she had been doing cocaine and drinking away the sorrows, and then took too much Xanax trying to go to sleep as many cocaine users often do. She also had an 80% blockage in an artery in her neck, which I'm sure did not help the situation at all.
The funeral was yesterday and I'm just having some trouble with this. I thought posting this and sharing this with someone might make things easier.
Thanks.
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Anonymous #2
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7770581 - 12/17/07 05:28 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Anonymous #3
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #2]
#7770629 - 12/17/07 05:41 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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Anonymous #4
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #3]
#7770690 - 12/17/07 05:53 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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That's pretty tough man. Death is always a difficult thing to deal with, and not a whole hell of a lot will help fix it except time.
Try and remember her at her best, and celebrate her life. Her being gone hurts you, and the ones who loves her but she feels no pain.
Something she just realized that you need to realize too -- life is short, make the best of it.
I hope you are okay, these next few weeks are going to be pretty tough. I hope you have enough people around you for support, because you will need them.
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Anonymous #5
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #4]
#7770714 - 12/17/07 06:00 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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My mom died and I posted here... It helps as much as anything else I suppose. 
December is a pretty bad month for me, but take some solace in the fact that you are not alone, and it gets easier with time. You'll always have moments tho... I still do.
Sorry for your loss.
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Anonymous #6
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7770856 - 12/17/07 06:27 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm very sorry for your loss. RIP.
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Anonymous #7
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7770970 - 12/17/07 06:53 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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im sorry to hear of your loss man
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Anonymous #8
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7770980 - 12/17/07 06:59 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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My condolences. It's tough to lose your mom.
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Anonymous #9
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7771199 - 12/17/07 07:49 PM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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That sucks. I can't say anything to make you feel better but I am sorry for you. Hopefully you are doing as well as can be expected.
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Anonymous #10
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #9]
#7772440 - 12/18/07 12:34 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm sorry for your lost man. I can't imagine what it is like to lost a parent, but I know the day will come, and i'll have to accept their passing.
My condolences to you and your family.
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Anonymous #11
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Re: my mom died a few days ago [Re: Anonymous #1]
#7772879 - 12/18/07 05:39 AM (16 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. A huge hug to you and your little brother. I'm wishing all the best for you and your family.
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Anonymous #12
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I lost my mom when I was 23. It was fucking hard, I'm not gonna lie to you. But you can get thru it.
I'd say along with the sorrow you are probably dealing with some anger towards her. But like you said, it doesn't sound like it was intentional, just bad judgement on her part. What a shame.
It took until I got a little older to realize my mom was human just like me, subject to making mistakes just like I do.
Thank goodness you still have your father and brother.
Peace and Love.
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Anonymous #13
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I am so sorry man. I am sure you have been hearing that a lot, and I know it does not help, but I honestly dont know what else to say. I can only say take each day as it comes. Some will be worse then others, but the only cure is time.
Just remember to celebrate her life. Be with your family as I am sure they need you. You will always have a person to talk to or a shoulder to cry on here.
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