over the past couple years my life has been a continuing downward spiral.
every time something good happens for me I only get more anxiety because I know it is going to be taken away from me in some horrible way.
I lost my job last month, I thought I was really going to work at this place for the rest of my life, I was making great money and had a union to back me up. I was almost happy. but even with the unions protection I was still unable to hold my job. Why did I get fired? well because people just don't like me basically.I rub people the wrong way. I try so hard to please people and be a better person but fail. I was always on edge and afraid to say or do anything wrong, knowing i would get fired if I did. I walked on thin ice until it finally broke. they found a reason, it wasn't even a good reason but it was enough to fire me, A customer complained where I parked my truck.a common complaint in my industry but for me, I was fired.
As depressing as that is, at least I still have my Girlfriend, I have been with her for over 3 years and I am madly in love, I want to marry this girl, but as you guessed she leaves me also. no woman wants to be with a loser.
Everything is collapsing under my feet. I don't know where to turn. the bill collectors are calling me everyday, I have no real friends.
no job, no girl, how can my life get worse?
Today my landlord shows up to my door, its Xmas eve and he has a gift for me. An eviction notice. I have never been evicted before, I have no idea where I will go, My mother is poor and has no room for me.my father is dead. thats all i have for family really. I have no money. I have no place to go, I have hit a dead end. rock bottom.
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