My mother is a control freak in the worst sense of the word.
When I was young she was quite abusive. She used to lock me in a room, deprive me of food (sometimes for a couple days) and beat me with a metal mirror.
She is still intensely verbally abusive and often says very demoralizing and self esteem shattering things.
She writes out explicit instructions and places them all around the house saying what to do and what not to do.
Dont sit on this couch, dont go in this room, dont eat this food, no guests, etc, etc, etc. It's her house, fine.
The constant verbal and mental assault is what I cant handle.
I feel like Im about to snap.
Logic DOES NOT work on her. She is delusional to the point that she has an entirely irrational view of reality, no friends and never leaves the house.
She confiscates any of my property that she does not like. She criticizes any of my interests, hopes and dreams telling me that I cant do that or I will never succeed.
I threatened her with a knife a couple years ago last time she drove me to the breaking point.
Im 24 years old and every time I threaten to move out she instantly turns into a victim and "oh woe is me what will I do without a man around the house".
I can keep these thoughts at bay but Im afraid if this went on for another 5-10 years I would be liable to SNAP.
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