i guess i'm pretty desperate to get my hands on some acid. anyway, i was asking around at this coop, and was eventually referred to by finger pointing to this guy sitting down. so i go over to this guy. i see there are two adults, i'm guessing parents, sitting right there.
so say to this guy: "hey, matt right?" he replies: "hey, yeah. what's up man?" i ask "are these your parents?" i wasn't 100% sure what he said, i think that one of them is, yet anyway, i say something really bad: "hey if i wanted to by stuff from you... you know, stuff..." he says "i don't sell or have any of that stuff.... you're really stupid, right? do you catch my drift? you're really stupid." i sat there realizing what the fuck was i thinking? what the fucking hell was i thinking? after 2 seconds of silence, i just walked out and went on, but felt terrible about it the whole time, especially cuz now he might have some real trouble.
i also realized if i did something so dumb it implies i'm not ready to trip anyway so i'll wait a bit after i figure out the root of such behavior and change that in myself.
thanks for listening.
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